somewhere in sept idk
6:27
I've found myself at a place where i dont know what to do. again.
Relizing how i really feel bout things has always been such a, annoyance. I don't know how to say no, thats the thing; i do things for other people that i dont want to do only because they want to do it. I've gotten better at it, definitely, but i think this flaw has backfired and I think i just pulled out the childishness of a sixteen yearold because of how much i succumbed to their wants.
But its just that... how come i get so much ??? hate for it ??? what happened to you have to stop being so selfless all the time and for once, i do something ideally selfish and all of a sudden you're all mad ??? like oh im sorry what am i going to do abt that, get hurt?? what do you think was going on in my hed for 2 months before i did what i did??
do you realyl think i just woke up one thursday morning and thought hey ! let me break up with him
like hello ???
Yes. i thought about it. Yes i know it hurt you, and yes im hurting too but if your best course of action decision was to cut me off and get mad at me for god knows how long, then mine is breaking up with you so you wouldnt have to put up with my own shitty brain
it is however nice to be ranting about a different boy for once (edit: i spoke too soon)
