LIVE IN YOUR LIGHT | anakin skywalker x fem oc

24.

It was past noon and I was at Padme's house. My sister had served me a cup of tea which I was sipping little by little. We had talked for a few long minutes, but I know that Padme suspects that I am hiding something from her. I see her put her cup on the small plate. She speaks up.

"Oriana, what is the real reason you came?" She asks.

I put my cup on the plate. I slide my hands on my thighs, nervous before launching myself.

"I have something to ask you...

- Tell me?"

I look down, biting my lip. I was afraid to ask her that question. It's not my habit to talk about this kind of thing, so I think Padme is bound to suspect something. But I go ahead.

"How do we know when we're falling in love?"

Padme frowns, confused and surprised at the same time. Just as I had predicted after all. She thinks for a few seconds before speaking up.

"I don't know... You usually know when you're in love.

- Yes, but when you don't know. What are the signs of love?

- You talk about it like it's a disease."

I feel like it's a disease, because it only makes me weaker. I grumble telling her she's getting off topic, Padme rolls her eyes before speaking up.

"I don't know... You smile when you think of him, you get butterflies in your stomach when he's near you, you think of him when you get up in the morning and before you go to bed."

I sigh before collapsing against the back of my chair. I tilt my head back looking annoyed and desperate. Padme steps forward slightly alarmed and concerned.

"What's going on Oriana?"

I lower my head towards her, meeting her eyes with mine. She immediately understands what I was talking about, and more importantly who.

"Did Anakin tell you that he loved you?

- Yes... Yesterday."

She looks down, thinking for a few seconds. And I know that she is certainly thinking about all the consequences in relation to the Jedi order. She lifts her head and answers me.

"Putting aside the fact that it's forbidden, you should listen to your heart.

- Listen to my heart? I can't."

I had raised my voice, feeling annoyed, angry with myself. Padme immediately takes the floor.

"No Oriana. You can do it, you just don't want to. You forbid yourself because you think love is a weakness. Let go of that promise you made to Mom and Dad and let Anakin give your life new meaning."

She slides her hand over mine, I then ink my eyes in hers before she speaks up.

"To be in love is to be human."

Her words echoed in my head. They only went round and round until I left. I walked out of the building and started walking. I don't know where I was going, but I didn't want to go back to the apartment and see him.

Padme was right, I was putting up barriers because I was focused on the task at hand, and I wanted to devote my whole life to it. She opened my eyes. I pull my hood over my head,
hiding myself.

I had picked up my lightsaber. You never know. Especially since I was out alone, without Anakin. I hope he's not worried about me.

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Anakin's POV

I was worried about her. I woke up this morning and waited for her to wake up too. But nothing, she still wasn't up by noon. So I went back to her room and saw that she wasn't there.

She had left without me. So I went looking for her all over Coruscant. I started at the Senate, maybe she was supposed to go there but she didn't tell me, but she wasn't there. Then I went to the Jedi Temple, maybe she went to see Master Windu? But nothing either. And here I am on the streets of Coruscant looking for her.

I just hope she's okay. Even though I know there's a chance she's been kidnapped or worse, killed. But I tried to push those thoughts out of my head, trying to stay positive. After looking around a whole area of Coruscant, I went back to the ship and continued looking for her.

And I spent the afternoon looking for her, night would soon fall and I knew that if I didn't find her by tonight, there would be no chance of me seeing her again. I feel guilty, it's my fault. She left because I told her I loved her. I should never have done that.

I feel so stupid and guilty. If Windu finds out she's missing he'll kill me. Leaving her alone on a planet this big with powers that can turn a planet to dust is very stupid of me. I hate myself.

I land near a palace before exiting the ship. I approach it. Ancestors of the Naberrie family had it built here. It was a perfect representation of Naboo's architecture, it stands out next to the other buildings around. Then I have a revelation.

Maybe she's here? I can't think of any other way. If she's not here, I'd have something to worry about. So I enter the palace. There was a big marble corridor with big columns on the sides.

I walked along the corridor until I came to a courtyard, there was a large square shaped pool in the middle, surrounded by pillars, the light of the setting sun reflected in the water. And there she was, sitting on the edge of the pool.

Her curly black hair was falling on her white cape, her hand was in the water, her head was down. I walked towards her before I saw that there was something lying on the ground beside her.

I notice that it is the necklace that I offered her, I have a small pinch in the heart while seeing that she removed it whereas yesterday morning she still carried it around her neck. I sit next to her, Oriana raises her eyes, meets my glance, then lowers them again.

I remain silent, telling myself that this is what she needed, silence. I understand her frustration. These times are hard for her and I only added a weight by doing what I did yesterday. I keep telling myself that I should never have told her everything. I should have kept everything to myself and waited for my feelings to go away.

She doesn't love me. She said it when she looked me right in the eye. And I can't force her to love me back. And I think she's right, that it's better this way. We should stay friends.

"Do you think if I hadn't used my powers in the arena, everything would be different and better?"

I feel her head turn towards me, I look up at her, meeting her gaze. I immediately notice tears running down her cheeks, and my heart broke in the same second. Seeing the people you love being sad is the worst torture, you feel helpless, you can't do anything to make them feel better. You can only stand there and watch.

"You think?" She says.

I hear her voice crack, and I can only do one thing, reassure her.

"I think that day you were brave and saved the lives of several jedis."

She bows her head. I immediately see one of her tears fall into the water, creating several circles around it. I stand up.

"Let's go home." I say.

I see her get up a few moments later, we walk out of the palace and into the ship.