LIVE IN YOUR LIGHT | anakin skywalker x fem oc

38.

"Fucking hell!" I yell as I walk into my room.

Anakin closes the door behind us. I slide my hands to my hair holding it tightly, not knowing what's stopping me from pulling it out.

"Oriana, please calm down.

- How do you want me to calm down? There's so much going on. I wasn't raised to run a kingdom!" I say.

Anakin puts both hands on my cheeks, trying to calm me down but my body was sweating, my tension very high. I don't know where to turn.

"You'll get there! You'll learn as you go, your parents will be there to help you!" He said.

I sighed loudly, feeling like I was losing control of everything, my life, my decisions and my powers.

"I don't know... I'm not cut out for this." I say with a jerky breath.

My heart was racing, it was a lot of pressure, I now had a kingdom on my shoulders and I don't know how I'm going to get out of it.

"Yes you're meant to do this! It runs in your veins." Anakin replies.

I lower my head but Anakin lifts it up for me with his hands.

"You are the most powerful and the strongest person I know. Nothing and no one can stop you.

- I don't know... There's so much going on, losing control of my powers, Padme's death and now I find myself a queen." I say.

But Anakin nods his head negatively, chasing away all those negative thoughts.

"No, you are Oriana Naberrie Amidala, Queen of Naboo and Senator. You will get through this, your parents will be there for you, and I will be there for you too." He said in a calm voice to try to calm me down.

And it worked, Anakin took my hand and put it on his chest, where his heart was beating, I then tried to regulate my breathing to find the same rhythm as Anakin's heart.

"Feeling better?" He asks.

I swallow hard and nod positively. Anakin then takes me in his arms and runs his hands through my hair.

"The funeral will be tomorrow morning and the coronation in three days, everything will be fine. I promise." He whispers.

I nod against his chest, wrapping my arms around his waist.

"Thank you Ani." I whisper, closing my eyes.

———

My hand was on Ryoo's shoulder. Pooja had her face covered by her black hood, I could see a tear running down Ryoo's cheek. Padme's coffin was in front of my eyes, her hair was loose and covered with white flowers, her skin was pale and she was wearing a pale blue dress.

Her coffin reaches the stairs where it is exposed. I take off my hood and leave the crowd of family and people of Naboo. I walk up the steps and turn to the people preparing to make a speech in memory of my sister.

"Padme was the greatest senator the Senate could ever have. She was the greatest queen Naboo could ever have. She was also my confidant, my protege, and most of all my sister. And that is why I believe I could never be as great and a brave queen as she was. Though her reign was short, Padme still served her people until her last breath, in the Senate as well as on the throne." I said, my throat constricted.

I meet my parents' eyes and see in the distance, near Anakin, C3PO and R2.

"During my reign, Padme will be my example, she will be my example as she always was. Padme was rich in values, rich in love and rich in respect. And that is why she will forever be our queen. And the queen of my heart." I conclude my speech.

A thunderous applause is heard, reasoning in the air, I turn to my sister's body, wanting to say a final goodbye.

"I love you Padme." I whisper as I place my hand on hers.

A tear runs down my cheek, two men then take the coffin, forcing me to leave Padme. They take her to a ship. I walk down the steps and join my sisters and parents, watching the ship leave.

———

"You came." I said as I walked over to Obi-Wan.

The jedi smiled at me before bowing.

"Of course I came, Padme was an important figure in everyone's eyes. This deserves a proper tribute." He said.

I put my hand on his shoulder and help him to stand up.

"Don't feel like you have to bend to me, not for you anyway." I say, turning to Anakin as well.

Obi-Wan dusts off his clothes before nodding. He then speaks to avoid silence.

"I'm sorry for your loss.

- Thank you very much Obi-Wan." I smile at him.

I join my two hands together in front of me before I see two familiar figures arrive behind Obi-Wan, I immediately notice Master Windu and Yoda.

"Hello your majesty." Windu replies with a slight bow.

I smile at them and turn my eyes to the short jedi who smiles sadly at me as he bows back with his cane.

"Our condolences we wanted to pass on to you Oriana. He says in a hoarse voice.

- Thank you very much for your presence. It delights me and all the people of Naboo." I said.

Both masters smile at me, Windu clears his throat softly before straightening up and speaking.

"How are you holding up? I'm guessing it can't be easy seeing all this in the papers." He asks.

It's true that it is hard. I don't know what's worse; seeing headlines talking about my sister's death or seeing them talking about my inability to rule a kingdom and my instability. I guess both are hard to see and read. Just as the speculation from politicians had begun to cease, the passing of the crown to me has reignited many debates.

They think that it is too dangerous to let me rule such a big and important kingdom and that I should ask for a hand of the queen.

"Yes, I am holding my own. Thank you for your concern Master Windu."

I smile politely at him, Master Yoda clears his throat softly drawing my attention. I rest my eyes on his small green figure before I see that he is pointing at me.

"Find Padme Amidala's killer we will try. Count on us you can, my queen." He says as he bows.

I have to say, it felt very strange to have someone who once never bowed to me do so now. And I don't like putting up this barrier that there wasn't before between me and people.

"Please master Yoda. Don't feel obligated." I said.

He immediately straightens up with the help of his cane before apologizing. My coronation will take place the day after tomorrow, and all the Jedi masters have been invited to the temple as my parents have decided. And I must admit that the more time passed, the more anxious I started to feel about this coronation.