Honey bear 🐻 🍯

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Tw: mentions of abuse , sexual assault (brief I don't go into detail but it's mentioned)

Namjoon is the sweetest person there is. He is the kindest boy, putting everyone before himself. He has always been that way since he was a young boy in grade school. He has the most wonderful soul a person could have. This tends to get him hurt, quite often. People tend to take advantage of his kindness, which he tries to look over, thinking that they had no intentions of being mean. Namjoon is great at hiding his emotions from everyone around him. He doesn't want to upset anyone.

He lets people walk all over him, he just wants people to like him. He was the quiet, shy boy in the back of the class. He had great grades, very intelligent. He was a great student. He did everything he could to make his parents proud or even just pay attention to him, which never happened. His parents told him he could do better, that they didn't raise a pathetic son like him. Namjoon took all those words and tried harder at school but his parents were never satisfied with his achievements. They compared him to his older brother Eunwoo, he was perfect in their eyes. Namjoon was and still is just a burden to them. Namjoon's family is quite wealthy. He was sent to private school, along with his older brother and older sister. Namjoon is the youngest of them. He did everything he could to please his family, but nothing ever worked. Even when he got better grades than his brother and sister, his parents didn't care, they told him he could be better. His siblings on the other hand got praises and kind words of encouragement. His sister Jiyeon wasn't any good at school and would constantly get into trouble but his parents never scolded her for anything. Namjoon on the other hand was slapped, hit with belts and punished for the smallest things or for things he never even did. He was beaten and punished for "lying" he wasn't lying he was trying to tell someone, tell someone something was happening to him by an adult. He was told he was seeking attention. His father told him, he was far too ugly for someone to even consider him. His mother called him a liar. His siblings laughed at him, telling him, he was crazy to think that someone would even go near him. Namjoon didn't tell his parents anything after that, but the abuse from that person did continue. His parents wouldn't fire that person nor would they ever believe Namjoon.

Namjoon cried himself to sleep every day of middle school and high school. His family never gave him attention or anything. His sister did walk in on Namjoon and his abuser. She freaked out, she screamed for their parents, and she thankfully did the right thing. His abuser was finally out of his life. His family on the other hand acted like it never happened after that.

Namjoon to this day does not tell anyone how he feels. Not wanting to burden anyone. To help with the stuff he has been through, he is an age régresser. No one knows but him, he would never share this with anyone, ever. That was until one day, his brother walked into his room without knocking. He saw Namjoon playing with some stuffies he had. His brother lost it. He screamed at Namjoon telling him, he was pathetic and disgusting. That he wasn't a child, that he was an adult. That he should be disgusted by himself. He got in Namjoon's face and continued to scream at him. Namjoon was crying at this point. The commotion caused his parents and sister to come to the room. They screamed at him. His father slapped his face. His mother was staring at him with the most disgusted face. His father had a tight grip on his face, screaming in his face. His older siblings were just staring at him disgustedly, they kept mumbling to each other. After a while, his father sent them out of the room while he stayed back to "chat" with Namjoon. It was not a chat, it was a long and violent beating. Once his father left, Namjoon laid on the floor as blood dripped from his nose onto his floor, as his body ached from the heavy poundings his father sent him.

Namjoon was truly thankful he is off to university now, he can get away from his family. The only good thing about his parents is that they give him money every month for his living expenses and to keep him from calling them or coming home. His university life was decent, he didn't talk to anyone. He was still very shy and quiet. He never expressed to anyone what he thought, or his ideas not even at school. One thing that was a surprise, was an older guy from his university asked him to hang out. Namjoon was shocked, of course, no one has ever spoken to him besides asking for his homework or for help understanding the lecture. He of course said yes, he was hoping to make a new friend. That new friendship bloomed into a relationship. The relationship was great until it wasn't. It was great until Namjoon was slapped for the first time. His boyfriend promised to never do it again . That promise was broken . That one slap turned into being beaten for the simplest of things, every day. To him being taken advantage of while in his headspace. Namjoon was stuck, he did truly think this man did love him, but he didn't love Namjoon. He was constantly cheating and blaming it on Namjoon. Namjoon was confused altogether. Was it his fault, his fault for not being desirable, for being pathetic, for being a burden? Namjoon didn't know. After a 2 year relationship, his bf dumped him on the streets. Bruised and injured, Namjoon had no idea what to do.  He was on the streets now, he 100% could not go back to his parents. Namjoon did have a few friends. One in particular, who could help him, Jinyoung.
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Hi🍯 I wanted to make a little Namjoon story . It will be quite angsty tho but I promise there will be some fluff. Hopefully you enjoyed 💗