Honey bear 🐻 🍯

2.5

A few more weeks had past, joonie and Jin spending more and more time together. Joonie is still quite scared in little space, all the reassurance from Jin doesn't really help. He has had so much degradation in-grated into his head. He believes every bad thing said about him and to him. Joon is still very cautious, he knows people can switch in a minute. His ex was a sweetheart at the beginning but the second they started living together he got violent and physical. He was never shown physical affection as a kid , he was told he didn't deserve it. His parents made it clear to him that he was the worst mistake they've ever made. His parents do call him , probably to not feel guilty about themselves but when they call him , it's just straight screaming and yelling , along with hateful and disgusting words sent joons way. They always make him feel like shit, they made him feel like he was a waste of space. They used to beat him daily , for everything , his siblings would laugh. He always had bruises on him but could never say anything, his parent are wealthy, he was sent to a private school along with other wealthy kids. Everyone loved joons parents and they were amazing , just not to their youngest son. Joon knows he will never be enough for anyone ever. He is absolutely nothing special. He and Jin are closer now but he knows it won't last , Namjoon will ruin everything. Joon makes sure his suitcase is ready at all time, he needs to be ready if something happens.

Joon was playing quietly with his toys in his room. Playing with his calico critters. Jin was in his study doing Some work since he only goes to the office 4 times a week. Joon was around 2 right now so he had a diaper on and his paci. Jins door was wide open so that he could keep an eye on the little. Jin watched as the little was super uncoordinated while playing, knocking things over accidentally and falling over while he played. Joon was so sweet , his flushed chubby cheeks that sucked on his paci, his big wide doe eyes, curiosity filled them. Jin went back to his emails glancing every once and awhile. He wondered how Joon could play with the same thing for hours. Joonie could do that because he never had toys, he would rarely be allowed to play with his friends toys. He would get yelled at or in trouble sometimes both. Joon even ask Jin if he is allowed to play with the toys, it takes joon a few minutes to hours to muster up the courage to ask that. Jin tells him all the time he doesn't have to ask but the little doesn't want to risk it.

The sound of joons phone wringing went off. He instantly slipped out of little, he knew who was calling. His mother was calling , she calls once or twice a week, sometimes three if she is feeling mean.

Phone call
J- hi mom
M- hello Namjoon
J- you called again?
M- you don't want to hear from your mother? That's so rude. You should be grateful , some parents don't even talk to their children. You know? I'm really glad I haven't seen you in a year. Just the thought of seeing your disgusting face makes me shiver. The thought of coming to see you makes me uncomfortable.
J- I know , I'm sorry
M- you're always sorry , you're sorry for everything. You don't even mean it. You upset me so much, you make me sick. I don't think we punished you enough as a kid. Maybe you would have been normal. All throughout your childhood you didn't talk, you still don't . Some People at my work don't even know you exist. I was too embarrassed to have you be seen in the family portrait. You don't deserve to be in the family photos not as you have disgraced and embarrassed us. First you accuse the butler of touching you, you ruined his life. You were whoring yourself around, no one would forcefully do that with you. You are gross, you make my skin crawl.

She kept going on and on about how disgusting her son was. She kept saying how she didn't even like to tell people that Joon was her son. When Joon was in school , some of the teachers didn't even know who joons parents were. Joons mom made him not tell anyone, unless they figured it out on their own. She always complained whenever Joon spoke , so he adapted to not talking unless he really needed too. She always accused him of being a whore, joon has never done anything that he had a say in ,he never wanted any of it. Her words really hurt. Joon knew he made people uncomfortable, he never tried to. He remembers as a kid getting screamed at for being in his room, being screamed at for sitting in the living room. He could never please his parents, it didn't matter how many 100% he got on all his test , it still wasn't good enough for them. Joon never got used to it, his parents are one of the main reasons why he has severe anxiety and why is constantly terrified. Joon slipped back into little space, he tidied up his toys and curled up on the floor hiding from the door. He brought his blanket to him and wrapped himself with it. He started to cry silently, he wished he could be a good son , one his parents would be proud of . Not this pathetic man baby, who is crying on the floor. Joon's heart broke, the harsh words that were sent hurt so much. Joonie sucked his paci for comfort, he hoped it would relax him but it didn't. He laid there for a while crying. "Joon? Baby what are you doing?" Jin asked walking into the room. Jin didn't see or hear Namjoon for a good 10 minutes. Joon curled up even more, waiting for Jin to start yelling at him. When Jin walked closer, he could hear Joon apologizing and pleading with him to not slap him. This broke Jins heart , something must have happened. "Hey love" Jin got beside his little, "I'm so sorry nini" Joonie cried, jin picked the little up and brought him into his lap. Jin gave his baby loads of kisses , snuggling up with the little. Joon needed loads of love and care. Jin could be the one to give that to his baby. Jin absolutely adored the little. " you feel better now? Wanna tell nini what happened?" Jin asked , "oh nofing , hurt toe" Joon said. He didn't want to tell Jin about his parents, he was embarrassed. "Baby" Jin said with a sad smile , hugging Joon close to his chest.
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Joon got more and more phone calls from his mother and sometimes father. The call were daily , sometimes twice. Joon hasn't told Jin yet, he didn't know what to say. He knows he should tell jin , Jin could help him but that embarrassing. Today Joon was going to visit Jins office with him. Joon wanted to see his picture frame and Jin couldn't say no to the little. What Jin forgot to mention was he worked at the cooperations his parents worked at. His parents were chairmen as well. Joon was dressed in a thick cream knitted sweater and a pair of khakis, Jin picked it out for him. Jin dressed in the same but a black sweater and black khakis. Joon followed Jin behind closely, holding onto his hand, joon hadn't been there since he was a baby, he doesn't even remember what the place looked like. Joons parents didn't allow him to go with them. Joon was quiet like always, not even thinking his parents worked here. As they were walking to the elevator, Joon saw his mother out of the corner of his eye. No!! Joon went closer to Jin , he couldn't take seeing his parents. He should have asked Jin who some of his coworkers were. Joon held Jin's hand, not letting his tight grip go. He really hoped his mother wouldn't see him. He wouldn't hear the end of it, his mother would have even more reason to call him and harass him. Jin's office was basically on the top floor, Jin told him that's where all the other big bosses work.  "We are almost there love" Jin said giving a forehead kiss to his little.
They entered into the office, it was nice , dark oak and loads of shelves and cabinets. It was nicely organized and cleaned. "Look it's your drawing" Jin lead Joon to the picture. There was a few pictures frames on the shelf one of him and his family, joons drawing and a picture of Tae , kook, Hobi , Jimin , Yoongi and Jin. "Wute , it's hyungies" joon mumbled quietly. "Hmm, I need to take an updated picture. We need one with you in my love" Jin said kissing Joons cheeks. Jin sat at his chair , wanting to check a few things quickly. What Joonie didn't know was that his mother and fathers office was on this floor. Since Jins light in his office was on, normally that's when people knock. So they did hear a knock and the door open. It was joons father and mother. They didn't acknowledge their son's presence. "Hello Seokjin! How are you?" Mr Kim asked, "I'm great thank you, you?" "I was doing great... but I am well" mrs Kim said, giving her soon a disgusted look. "You've put weight on haven't you?" She asked Namjoon, "I'm not sure, I apologize" Joon responded. "Why are you even here? Did you come and bug Seokjin? I told you I never wanted to see you at my place of work. I've kept you practically hidden. This is so embarrassing" joons mother continued. "I'm so sorry for my son, he doesn't know when he isn't wanted. I'll take him" Mr.Kim said yanking joons arm. "Wait wait, Namjoon came with me. He isn't bugging me , we are actually friends" Jin said defending Namjoon. Namjoon may be a buff man but he is way to shy and scared , even when in his normal age headspace. "Oh dear, you don't have to defend him. Namjoon still hasn't learned he isn't wanted anywhere. He doesn't even have the manners to greet his parents" Joons mom said, shaking her head in disgust. "I'm not sure if this is work related but I am not in the office today. We just came here to drop some stuff off" Jin said gently bringing Joon behind him. "Oh my apologies. May I have a word with my son?" Mr. Kim tried , they put back on their nice apparence and attitude; one that joon had never received by them. "I'm not sure if I am comfortable with that. I think it's best for another time" Jin said leading everyone out , holding Joon close to him. He saw the tears down his baby's cheeks. He saw how heart broken Joon looked. Once everyone was out , Jin and Joon left without saying goodbye. Joon knew he was going to get a phone call later, and if he didn't answer he would get continuous calls. Joon didn't show any emotions when he got into the car, Jin could tell he was still big.