Honey bear 🐻 🍯

3.7

Sorry for how long this took . Idk if I will write a more intimate chapter between Joon and Jin . I might . Life has been kinda shitty lately so I haven't really had the motivation to write much. I hope this chapter is ok💕

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Joonie has been very reserved lately, more than he usually is. He has been doing everything on his own and trying to be a big boy. His daddy has been at home a lot lately because of what happened. Joonie doesn't want his daddy to be more stressed. He has been sneaking around , he has been hiding when he is little. He doesn't want him to have added responsibilities. So joonie tried his best to not slip unless Jin was very busy in his study or when he had to go to his office building.

So today since Jin had to go to the office , joon let himself slip but made sure to hide in his room. Joonie sat behind his bed , hiding from the door.
Joonie sat with his blankie and his plush crab on his carpet. He was watching a sea animal documentary while playing with his calico critters. He played quietly, watching and looking around the room and at the door. Making sure no one would catch him in his little space. Joonie had his pacie in while he was watching his show. He carefully and quietly put away his toys , he was paying more attention to his show than his toys. Little Joonie , he hasn't been very present lately. Little him is too scared to be out and have other people seeing him. Even his own caregiver, Joon has embarrassed himself enough. Joonie was curled up on the floor trying his best to stay silent and listen to hear if the garage door opens. Joonie played with his crabs pinchers while he watched The walruses on his screen. Joon was wearing something comfortable, just his grey sweats. He can't risk being caught in his little clothes. Joon also hasn't worn a diaper in a few weeks , he wanted to be able to get to the potty on his own.  But really he just didn't want to get caught in little space. Each time he has slipped , he doesn't say a word the whole time he is little. Which the little is comfortable with. He hates talking , absolutely hates it. Having to respond to someone , the fear of not knowing how the other will respond . That takes a lot on Joon , he should trust his caregiver but he is just scared of everyone. So little joonie laid quietly on the floor , trying to not dose off to sleep before his daddy got home. Joonie was so nice and warm , his daddy had put new wall sent plug ins . This one he had put around the house . Which was a warm cinnamon bun cookie sent. Joonie's cheeks were rosy , he was in such a warm and safe environment but he still feared what could happen if he was caught. Joonie could feel himself start to fall asleep, he knew that was a sign to start putting his little stuff away. Joonie quickly got up and put away his little things . He left his room , while leaving his room to go into his hyungs room . He heard the garage door open , he made it out just in time. Joon was on the verge of little space still , he should be able to hide it from Jin. Joon went to their shared bed and snuggled into the duvet and waited for Jin to come upstairs. Joonie wanted to be little so bad . He wanted to have his caregiver hold him and cuddle him but he can't. He doesn't deserve it and that's just how it has to be.
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Joon has been hiding his little space even more , it's been 3 weeks since Jin has seen little joonie. Joon has even started his new job at the library, Jin helped him get the job. Joon he has been working 3 times a week, which is nice because he can avoid being little. Joon works with an older women , he enjoys it a lot more. His job is a lot easier and way calmer. Joon feels a lot less anxious and doesn't cry when he is at work. His hyung still packs his lunch. Joon is very thankful his boyfriend is so caring and helpful. Which makes joon feel even more guilty about lying. He hates lying but he hates being such a burden to his boyfriend when he starts acting like a baby. Joon also knows he is the most dependent little, he needs a lot of help when he is little . Joon hides it tho, he makes sure that he doesn't bug or annoy his caregiver. Joon has been slipping but he makes sure he isn't noticed. He craves his caregiver but he can't do that to him. Joonie has been pretending to go take naps but he is sleeps in his little room and cuddles hidden under the bed with his blanket and crab plushie.