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🔵 Fall [Bbangmil]

Hyunjae had his whole life figured out. He had a college degree in business management, a stable job, a family who love and support him, and most of all- a boyfriend he wants to spend the rest of his life with.

Kim Younghoon, his boyfriend of 5 years and counting was the one person who stuck by his side through thick and thin. Without him, Hyunjae doesn't know where he would be in life. Younghoon's support is that huge that nothing would be possible without him.

So that's why Hyunjae was deep in thought as he woke up that Sunday morning. Younghoon gave everything for Hyunjae- he appreciates that, he knows he does. But why does it all feel wrong now? It didn't feel like this yesterday- or the day before.

What changed? And that's when Hyunjae came to the realization- he changed. His feelings changed. The love he once felt for the other suddenly vanished as he woke that day. He doesn't know where it went to but it isn't there anymore.

It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair to anyone in this relationship. It wasn't fair that Younghoon's partner suddenly fell out of love with him. It wasn't fair that Hyunjae lost the love he once had for the love of his life. It just was not fair, at all.

Hyunjae knows it wasn't fair, especially to Younghoon. So instead of saying something, he stayed quiet. He acted like everything was still ok and normal. He acted as if he still loved the other. He acted like a fool.

Younghoon didn't catch on, no one did. Everyone thought Hyunjae was and will forever be in love with Younghoon. But sadly, that wasn't the case. Every moment, every smile, every kiss, and every hug- all of those seemed fake.

And yet, no one knew that Hyunjae fell out of love. No one did, and no one will ever know.

"Love, are you alright?" Younghoon asks as he places a hand on Hyunjae's forehead. "Of course!" Hyunjae laughs. "Why wouldn't I be?" The other shrugs. "You seem a bit out of it... Have something on your mind?"

'Yes. A lot of things actually.' Hyunjae thought. "You know, you can always tell me what's bothering you." Jaehyun shook his head. "It's fine." 'Unless you wish to hear me say the words you wish to never ever hear.'

Younghoon still had a pout on his face, clearly still concerned but he decided to let it go. Hyunjae would tell him whenever he feels like it. He trusts him! He trusts him as much as he loves him. That, Younghoon was very sure.

"Im planning on going to Chanhee's, wanna come?" Hyunjae shook his head. "I'm tired. I'll head home now. You have fun though!" With that, Jaehyun kissed Younghoon's cheek before leaving him to get back home.

When Hyunjae entered, he had one thought in his head. He needed a drink. "One shot of tequila and vodka." He says to the bartender. The bartender nods and quickly makes his order. Instead of going home, he headed to the bar.

"Another 5 shots, please." He says as he quickly downs the first one. 4 shots in, Hyunjae started to feel tipsy. "Antho shot ples!" (Another shot please) Hyunjae's speach started to slur. He kept drinking until he forgot all of the stresses he has.

The more he drank, the more he forgot about falling out of love with Younghoon. In fact, he doesn't even remember that he is still with his boyfriend. All he wanted to do now was mingle around with people and possibly find someone to take home.

As he was drinking, someone came up to him and started to talk. One thing led to another and now, they were making out. The music in the bar was so loud, no one heard the ringing of a certain someone's phone.

When Jaehyun woke up the next day, he woke up with a splitting headache and on an unfamiliar bed. Random pieces of memories started to come flashing back to his mind. He checked his phone out of habit and flinched seeing the amount of texts and calls Younghoon had.

Hyunjae knew what he had to deal with as consequence for not answering any calls and texts. With a hangover, he had to deal with his angry boyfriend. He quickly wrote down his number for the person he slept with and left the house without a word.

"YOU GOT DRUNK AND DIDN'T TELL ME?!" Younghoon exclaims for the nth time that month. You would think Hyunjae leaving in secret to go to the bar was a one time thing, well you thought wrong. "I DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOU!"

"I'M YOUR BOYFRIEND-" "YEAH, NOT MY MOM!" Hyunjae exclaims. Both boys were getting frustrated with each other, especially with the amount of times they've had the same argument over the course of a month.

Younghoon then exclaimed, "WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS?!" Just as Hyunjae was about to say something, a familiar ding sounded through out the room. "Who's that?" With that, Younghoon grabbed the other's phone and looked through it.

Hyunjae tried to get it back but with Younghoon's obvious height advantage, he failed. "Who's.. Who's Amaya?" Younghoon's voice dropped to a whisper as he read through their conversation. "Lee Jaehyun... Please, explain."

Hyunjae wanted to feel guilty but at the same time, he realized that perhaps he's been hiding for way too long. "Are you- are you..." Younghoon couldn't bring himself to say that word. Cheating. He didn't want to imagine the love of his life being unfaithful.

After all of the things they've been through- why would this happen? "Yes. Yes, I am." Hyunjae decided to come clean. "But why? Was I not enough for you?" Younghoon was sobbing. "Did I do something to make you feel not enough?"

"It's not you-" "Then what? It's you? You're the problem?! YOU WOULDN'T DO THIS TO ME IF I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO YOU! WHAT DID I DO FOR YOU TO DO THIS?!" Hyunjae lets out a huff. "It isn't anything you did! How many times do you want me to repeat it?"

By then, Younghoon's face was puffy and tear stricken, while Hyunjae's stayed indifferent. "Then why..." "Do you want to know why?" Younghoon nodded. All he wanted to understand now is why Hyunjae did that to him.

"I did it because I fell out of love with you. I don't know why nor do I know how, but I just did. I woke up one day and I realized I didn't love you anymore. There- happy?" Hyunjae says. He finally got his answer but Younghoon kept shaking his head.

He wanted to deny everything Jaehyun just said. "I'm sorry but, I just don't love you anymore-" "NO! No, you can't! You can't just wake up one day and realize that 5 years of our relationship means nothing to you anymore!"

That was true but Hyunjae couldn't help the way his feelings worked. "I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING! I GAVE UP SO MUCH THINGS TO BE WITH YOU AND ALL YOU'LL DO IS THROW IT AWAY?!" Younghoon exclaims, breaking down once again.

"I'm sorry." Was all Hyunjae can say. The sorry meant nothing to Younghoon. He broke his heart not once, but twice with the revelation of him cheating and falling out of love. "No, I'm sorry." Younghoon suddenly says. "I'm sorry for falling in love with you."

06/29/22