Must have been the Wind [Karlnapity] (Dream SMP)

Chapter 10

⚠️TW⚠️
Panic Attack
Like one curse word

Tuesday 9:30 a.m.
Quackity just woke up and laid in bed staring at the celling like he did most mornings since schlatt had died and finally gave Q a 'normal' life. Quackity sighed knowing he had to get up for work but he didn't want to.

'God why did Karl had to be dating Sapnap!?' Quackity just thought as he huffed in frustration. Quackity had to admit that Karl was one of the things to keep him going after Schlatt had practically kidnapped him and forced him to marry him. He had a crush on Karl with how nice he was but buried it down deep when schlatt took that away from him and he found out Karl had a boyfriend.

But 6 months later schlatt up and died just like that, not to much to Quackity's surprise however since he always did tell schlatt that the cigarettes and alcohol would soon get to him. After 5 months Quackity seemed to have finally recovered from all the trauma and pain schlatt had induced into him, but he still had triggers, nightmares, flashbacks, and worst of all his panic attacks. Of course they weren't as frequent as they were when schlatt had just died but they were still there reminding Q of everything Schlatt had done.

Since Quackity moved back into the city got back in touch with his dear old friend Dream and his apparently new boyfriend George he had been staying with George since he had an spare bedroom and gotten a new job at another cafe that Dream recommended. Quackity started thinking back on Karl and his whole crush deal. So he decided to check if Karl had any socials.

When Quackity found Karl he was happy and  about to get back in touch but his thoughts got the best of him, he couldn't message Karl. Then it hit Quackity that Karl was most likely still dating his boyfriend, hopefully he didn't mess that up. With that Quackity admitted defeat and gave up on the whole crush on Karl and went to the park to clear his mind like he always did since he moved back in the city.

On this day however was different since it was the day he met Sapnap. Now Sapnap instantly peeked Q's interest for whatever reason, maybe how he had a hint of a texan accent which you could barely hear in his voice but was still there regardless, he had a certain style about him, how confident he seemed, his demon tail that seem out of place on him but also it seemed to fit just right, or maybe he was just fascinated by him and his amber fire like eyes. Whatever the reason Q just had fallen for this man once he spoke which frustrated Q inside. Why? Well simply because he had fallen for some random man he had barely talked to and his last relationship didn't end so well. Q loving someone again or have new form of a crush was thought to be near to impossible for him.

With this however didn't stop Q for having butterflies in his stomach when Sapnap spoke. But his heart practically shattered when he heard that Sapnap was in a relationship with a other.  So Q pushed his feelings down so he didn't become a home-wrecker and gave Sap some relationship advice for his lover.

However yesterday was a bucket of emotions Quackity couldn't even understand himself. Karl running up to hug him just gave Quackity a sense of safety and being properly loved for the first time in a while, as for Sap even seeing him gave him butterflies. However this good warm feeling didn't last long when Q realize that Sapnap and Karl must be dating do to the jealous glare Sapnap was giving. Quackity was being a home-wrecker without even noticing it so he quickly came up with an excuse and left.

"GAH EMOTIONS ARE FUCKING STUPID!" Quackity yelled as he thought back to the past two days. Q just let out a soft whimper, 'Is it bad to wish I was in a relationship with them? Karl is sweet and kind, while Sap well his just fucking hot' Quackity huffed in defeat as he looked at the clock showing he was late for work.

He could and would delay his feelings once again as he quickly got dressed in the uniform and walked out the house skipping breakfast as he didn't really see a point in it and walked to his work place.

Tuesday 11:44 a.m.
'Another day another pain in the ass customer' Quackity thought as this man came out of no where and started complaining to him about parking or whatever. Quackity wasn't really listening and just spacing out till the guy left or was done talking. The guy just slammed his hands on the counter, Quackity instantly flinched and stopped spacing out as he looked at the guy with fear in his eyes.

The guy scoffed, "OF COURSE SOMEONE LIKE YOU ISN'T LISTENING!" he just yelled at Q. Unfortunately yelling was one of Quackity's triggers, especially if it was a guy who could easily over power him. Quackity just felt very weak in his body, venerable at this moment, he slightly glanced at his hands and they were shaking like crazy and he noticed he started hyperventilating, and slightly struggling to breathe. He wanted this guy to stop yelling so bad but he wouldn't/couldn't make the guy shut his trap.

Quackity breathing got heavy like he was almost suffocating as he flinched again when the guy snapped his fingers infront of Quackity's face. Quackity felt like crying, running away, or throwing up, maybe all three. He felt like everyone was staring and watching the scenes unfold itself. Q just couldn't stand there being yelled at anymore and stared at. So Q quickly got up from his stool from behind counter and just ran out the store. Of course his boss and co-workers are gonna question him when he gets back, if he gets back but Q just needed air, he couldn't take it anymore.

Quackity just ran to the park, it wasn't far from his work and he definitely would calm him down faster. He just plotted down on a bench by the pond, he brought his knees to his chest as he hugged them tight to his chest and bawled his eyes out trying to catch his breath and get to a normal pace. He hated crying since Schlatt would always give him shit for it and he felt so weak crying but he needed to cry right now. "Quackity...? Are you alright?" A guy said in a soft worried tone and gently touched his shoulder. Quackity instantly flinched and he looked up at the guy tears in his eyes slightly hyperventilating still.