Must have been the Wind [Karlnapity] (Dream SMP)

Chapter 28

⚠️TW⚠️
implying self harm and suicidal thoughts and actions
hallucinating

Monday 6:11 p.m.
Sapnap knocked at Q's door as Karl stood by him looking worried as hell. "Yea?" Quackity answered from the other side not opening the door. "Hey Q! We wanted to check if you're okay, can we come in?" Karl asked as he grabbed Sap's hand holding it while the two waited for the door to open or for Q to respond. "I'm okay! I'm actually busy right now, erm can we talk later?" Quackity responded from the corner of his room, he was busy crying his eyes out but the door muffled the pain in his voice which he thanked whoever made the door. Karl and Sapnap looked at eachother before signing, "alright..if ya need anything and we mean anything come get us k Q?" Karl spoke as he had an awful feeling leaving the hybrid alone but wanted to respect his privacy and decision.

"Yup!" Quackity called out once again as he stayed quiet waiting for the sound of footsteps leaving and they eventual did which made Q sigh in relief. Yet the peace didn't last long as he soon started crying again thinking about what could've happened at dinner both good, and unfortunate bad. 'Ew! Quackity we would never like someone like you!' the fake scenario Karl called out in Quackity's mind making the poor boy hug his knees tightly and quietly sob again. 'We are in a happy relationship you know Q' the fake Sapnap said as Q nodded a bit like in acknowledgement that Sapnap had actually said it.

"How sad" Quackity's head quickly shot up as his eyes widen as more tears started to roll down his face to see his dead ex. "Oh cmon! Are you really gonna cry over people who don't care about you now?" Schlatt asked as he leaned on the wall, watching Q slowly get up from the corner wiping his tears. "s-so what? And t-they do care!" Quackity huffed angrily as he sat on the bed glaring at Schlatt, he knew Schlatt was dead and this was a hallucination his mind made up so he was definitely a bit calmer this time compared to the first time. "mmmm nahhh I don't think so, I mean who would love an ugly duck hybrid like yourself?" Schlatt asked in a slightly hum glaring back at Q sending shivers down his spine.

"Shut up Schlatt" Quackity sighed as he got into the covers of his bed and buried himself under them trying to warm up and block out schlatt. "You know it's rude to talk to guests like that" Schlatt said as he walked over to Q and sat next to him. Once Q felt schlatt sit down he uncovered himself to glare at the goat hybrid on his bed, "leave me alone Schlatt" "Ooooo~ look at that new spice you have there!" Schlatt said reaching over for Q but Q swatted his head away and scooted farther away from Schlatt, "Don't touch me" Schlatt scoffed and raised en eyebrow at Q, "wow. you know when we were together you would have never done that" Quackity hugged his knees as he looked at the ground before looking at Schlatt hella pissed, "because I was scared shitless of you...but now your dead, there is nothing you could do to me now plus I have people who actually love me so I don't need to go around chasing your validation anymore!"

Schlatt made a click noise with his tongue as he stood up walking to the door, "wow, big Q finally grew some balls huh? But lets be real, are you sure they even love you? I mean cmon, it probably will always be Sapnap and Karl rather then Karl, Sapnap, and Quackity" Quackity glared at Schlatt watching him go through the door and disappear. Quackity let out a breath he hadn't realized he has been holding as he started to tear up once again thinking about what Schlatt had said, 'it will always be them and never you and them'

"Quackity?" a voice came from the door making Q jump a bit as he wiped his tears trying to calm himself down, "ya.?" "It's Sapnap again, I wanted to check on ya again...I know you said you were busy but me and Karl are worried. The thing you wanted to talk about with us seemed really important and I don't want you to be afraid to ask us anything if you are afraid of what the outcome might be. Me and Karl welcomed you in our home so you could feel safe, that hasn't changed and it won't change under any circumstance." Sapnap spoke as he sat down leaning on Q's door waiting for Q to answer him. "really?" Quackity asked quietly but Sapnap still heard it as a small smile came across his face before he spoke, "ya of course!"

Quackity slightly bit his lip as he walked over to the door to open it. Q just put his hand on the handle but he couldn't do it, his fears were to great to face Sapnap and tell him so he sat by the door leaning on it as he took a deep breath. 'Just do it Q! You're safe in your room so nothing to be scared of!' Q thought as he took a deep breath in and out before he finally spoke to an anxiously waiting Sapnap, "What um..what I wanted to tell you at the table Sap was-....was I like you a-and Karl like a lot-..and I was wondering if we can be in a poly? I-its like being in one big relationship with eachother..." Sapnap just took a second as a big smile spread across his face slowly yet he still got up and responded to Q, "I will be right back Quackity" he hummed and quickly ran away to tell Karl what Q told him.

Since Quackity was already in a doubtful mindset the 'I will be right back Quackity' Sapnap spoke sounded more negative to the duck hybrid causing him to start to tear up, 'Look what you did, now he is gonna tell Karl and you will be kicked out just like that' 'you were replaceable to begin with, nothing new' 'cmon leave or just die right now, no one will care especially them' Quackity just cried harder he wanted to make the voices stop to say the least but he was struggling to hold them back, trying not to listen. Unfortunately for Quackity they slowly started to make there way in his brain telling him things he swore he wouldn't do again, yet here he was....about to do something he was gonna regret again.