The Date

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

Kate

"Wow Leah, you got a great voice" Lilly said from the front seat. She really did have a great voice I thought as all the girls were singing along to the radio station. I loved music but I never really got a chance to buy any CDs and if I did I had nothing to pay them on other than the CD player at Millie's café. But I still liked listening to the radio and the club music which was a little different but still ok. I think the song she was singing to was Katy Perry.

We got to the town about ten and it looked busy. Well busy for a small little town like this. All the buildings all looked like old Victorian style houses and shops with small doorways and stone walls and floors. There were market stools down the strip of the town selling fresh meats and bread.

This place was amazing. It was my dream home. I loved the idea of having my own bakery in a small little village in the middle of nowhere. Everything would be peaceful and quiet compared to the city. I would have a bike with a basket where I'd drive to the shop to get my jam and bread and then have picnics in the fields. The people would be kind and sweet... that was the dream. Maybe with Jay's money I could find myself somewhere nice to move to...

We all looked around the markets buying sweets and other little bits. I brought Millie some homemade Jam and some recipes the baker gave me to take back with me.

"I love food" I said as I took a large bit of a cookie, making the girls laugh. Gemma had brought loads of chocolate and Lilly had got a large bag of different pick and mixes sweets and were eating them all on are way up the town.

Everyone was laughing and joking around singing but my head wasn't really on anything but Jake. I couldn't get him out of my head. He had pushed his way into Jay's plans and into my head and I couldn't get him out. Everything I said and did I thought if he would have wanted me to say that or not. I thought because if it would have made him angry or happy, if I would make him laugh or yell like he normally did at me. It made me think about what he would do, would he walk away with that angry glare of his or would he try and make his point clear by pulling me into his large stone hard chest of his. Where he was so warm and strong, where he would kiss me so hard and fast to start with but then would turn soft and sweet always making me want more and more.

I don't understand this game that his playing with me. Was he playing with my emotions, too make be fear and want him and the same time, to send me into a fit of confusion where I felt lost with him and without him near? I just don't understand. I know he doesn't like be but whenever he was so near me, I could feel something flutter inside me when I looked in his eyes. When we would kiss I could feel the flutter grow inside me to the point of throbbing and aching but I didn't want it to stop. But it had to stop. Maybe that's what last night was all about. The way he looked at me with those serious beautiful eyes of his maybe he was trying to tell me something. I just didn't know what.

"Kate you alright?" I heard Leah ask.

Within these two or three days of knowing Jake I've had to be more on guard with my feelings than I have ever been before. I know his plan was to get rid of me but surely he wouldn't go as far as making me fall for him.... Not that there's any fear of that happening at all. Well if that was his plan then he was going to fail. I won't let him affect me like this fluttering nonsense anymore. From now on the ice that has been built around my heart for the past ten years will be forever thicker and harder to brake.

"Kate?" she said softly touching my arm. Bringing me out of my daydream.

"Hmm... oh yeah fine thanks" I said sending a sad smile her way.

"You looked serious with Jay earlier, everything ok?"

"Yer everything's fine, just find perfect" I said nervously. Before leaving Jay wanted to know why I went to bed so early last night and wanted to remind me that that's not the reason he brought me here. I knew I should have gone back to him after I danced with Jake but I couldn't and now he was angry with me. My heart was up in my throat as I tried to make things seam fine but really I was just trying to convince myself anything was fine.