AniDita : Spaces Between Us

forgivness

Anirudh : jab jhoot bolna nehi ata to bolti kiyu ho?

Bondita : main kaha jhoot bol rahi hu! nehi to.

Anirudh : fir yeh kiya hain?

Anirudh held her hand infront of her and asked gesturing the paste. Bondita gave nervous smile.

Bondita : yeh...yeh... apke liye layi thi. thakuma ki dawa hain jo unhone mujhe bana nah  sikhaya tha. aap laga lena...

Bondita said looking otherside. Anirudh smiled thinking he was wrong. He still matters to her.

Anirudh : main kaise laga sakta hu..tum hi lagado.

Anirudh asked showing his arms.Bondita noded. She was feeling shy to apply. She took his arms in her hand and slowly applied  the paste. Anirudh just staring her and smiling with moist eyes. He could see the same care in her eyes.

Anirudh in mind : kehti hain mera chehra dekh ke usse taqleef hoti hain par aaj bhi mujhe taqleef mein nehi dekh sakti. iska matlab kiya samjhu? 

Bondita bent down and blew air on his wound. whe felt his gaze on her and looked at him. he was staring her while smiling. She was getting red in shyness and greet her teeths. Anirudh laughed.

Anirudh : bondita sharmana bhi sikh gayi...?

Bondita : nehi to main kaha sharma rahi hu... kuch bhi! 

Anirudh : fir idhar udhar kiyu dekh rahi ho? direct meri taraf kiyu nehi dekhti?

Bondita :aisa kuch nehi hain or aap? apka dhiyan kaha tha? kaise gadi chalah rahe thei ki  jo itna badah accident hogaya?  agar kuch hojata apko to? 

Anirudh : tumhari nafrat mein jeene se accha hain ke main maar...

Bondita put hand on his mouth.  They were looking into eyes.

Bondita : jo hua usse mein bhul nehi sakti par jo bachpan se leke apne mere liye kiya usse bhi  nehi bhul sakti kabhi bhi.  agar apne mere haton mein kalam nehi thami hoti agar mujhe sapne dekhna na sikhaya hota to aaj main yaha nehi hoti. par yeh sab bhulna mere liye asan nehi hain.

Bondita told him. Anirudh winch as she pressed her hand more tighly on his bruised face. as Bondita realised immidately removed her hand.

Bondita : sorry...

Anirudh : fir mujhe maaf kiyu nehi kar deti? ek mouka to do mujhe

Bondita : no I am sorry... maine kuch ziyada hi bol diya apko sab meri galti hain...ghusse mein aisi baatein keh gayi ke jo kehna nehi chahiye tha...ap 1 saal se mujhse mafi mang rahe hain...or main apko.... hurt karti rahi...bura bhala kehti rahi. I am sorry

Bondita brusht into tears He slowly wipped her tears. Anirudh slowly wipped her tears.

Anirudh : rou maat...main theek hu. or jab tum sath hoti ho sare dard kaam hojate hain. tumne mujhe maaf kardiya wohi kafi hain mere liye.

Bondita stopped crying and looked at him. he smiled. Bondita warpped her arms around his neck and cried hugging him. Her head was placed on her shoulder. Anirudh got surprised of her sudden action. 

Bondita : I am really sorry... sakhababu...... bohat sataya na apko? ushdin ghusse mein maine yeh keh diya ke apka chehra mujhe dekhna na padeh. par main yeh bilkul nehi chahti thi par jab suna apke bare mein mujhe daar lagne laga agar sach mein apko kho deti to?? main soch bhi nehi sakti...aur agar aaj apko kuch hojata to main apne apko kabhi maaf nehi kar paati... I am sorry shakhababu...

Bondita cried loudly. Anirudh also got tears hearing shakhababu from her mouth as she only calls him Anirudh Sir.
He slowly placed his hand on her back and smiled with teary eyes.