Falling back - Sequel to Facing Reality

Heavy Hearts

Kiaras Pov

He was leaning in to kiss me.I was here alone with him and he was about to kiss me. I was here at the movies, on a so called "date" and he was about to kiss me. POPE was about to kiss ME.

Ok that's enough of this. I have to end this right now

"Pope stop!" I said and he jumped
"What the hell are you doing?!"I said

"What? I thought that you were feeling the same way i mean you didn't say anything-"

"I didn't say anything because I'm trying to not hurt your feelings"

"What?"

"Look Pope its just not like that with us"

"But Kie we had a great time today! And we've been talking a lot again and you've been so nice to me and-"

"I'm just a nice person Pope"

"Look Kie - I know we tried it once but things have changed I've changed!"

"Pope we don't want the same things - like at all!"

"But I can support those things! I can be there for you and I can protect you and I can love you and we could be great together I know it I can feel it!" And that's what broke me. That one little word. Love.

"But I can't Pope!" I half yelled

"Pope you are a very good friend and I appreciate you so much and I'm so happy we can be friends again.." I stopped for a minute because I was getting emotional.

"Im am so sorry Pope But it's just not going to happen it didn't work then and it's not going to work now" I felt my eyes starting to water

"But .. why not .. why not at least try" he practically begged. I feel so bad but this isn't what I want.

"Because I love someone else Pope!"and with that the first tear fell down my face. And that's first time I admitted it to anyone, including myself.

"What!? Who?" He said with shock and confusion

"My ex.. uh from boarding school" I lied "I mean we broke up but we were in love and I'm pretty sure I'm still in love with him.. but I don't think he'll ever love me again" I said as more tear trickled down my face.

"You mean you don't like me like that at all?" He said with disappointment.

"No i-im sorry.."

"Oh  gosh I'm sorry Kie .. I guess I just misread the signs how could I be so stupid!"

I looked at him and could tell he was crying a little bit too. I can't believe I broke his heart again. What is wrong with me.

"No no it's okay i shouldn't of agreed to come I just needed something to take my mind off things" i said honestly

"And I really like twilight" I laughed and he did too.

"Look.. you're a good guy, a great guy and someday you will find a girl and make her the happiest person in the world but .. today isn't that day and I'm not that girl..I'm sorry"

"Me too I shouldn't of pushed it .. I mean I should've just listened to you the first time I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry"

"Can we please just not make things awkward again? Let's just forget about all this and actually be friends? Cuz i really need a friend right now" i said

"Of course but .. can you just not tell the guys about all this.. Just kind of embarrassing on my half"

"Of course" i said laughing and wiping my tears off my face.

We stayed and watch the rest of the movie in silence, but it wasn't an awkward silence. It was comfortable silence.Afterwards we listened to music and I dropped him off at home and then I went back to my house. Even though I don't have JJ back and .. he doesn't love me anymore. I still felt better. I finally told Pope the truth .. well mostly the truth .. and it felt good.

I went to bed that night feeling better than the last, but my heart couldn't help but ache at the thought of JJ and Blake.

Even though I got Pope off my back, JJ was still heavy on my heart.

JJs Pov

I was laying on the pull out at John B's watching tv and watching the time. The movie ended at 11. It's 12:30. And still no word from Pope.

John B was still out with Sarah so I was here alone.I have literally been staring at my phone all night waiting for an update.And then finally they texted in the group chat.

John B.: so how'd it go with Kie?

Pope: good!

My heart sank.He did it. They did it. And then I completely broke down.