TRIGGER WARNING: HOMOPHOBIC PHRASES/ Implied abuse
(WILLS POV)
I almost tell Mike the feelings I have been burying inside of me for so long.. years. But, Dustin and Lucas come and the courage that had built inside of me suddenly collapses.
I wipe my tears and pretend me and mikes conversation never happened. I am fine. I dont have feelings for Mike. Im normal. Im not different. I know these are lies but acting like its fine is the only way to keep composure.
"What do you mean Vecna is getting stronger.. has he been terrorising you? Are you seeing stuff?" Dustin says worried.
"No im not. I'm fine. I'm fine. I umm I just know because well you know the feeling I get." I stumble upon my lies .
Mike stares in confusion and worry. He knows im lying but doesnt say anything.
"We have to kill him." Lucas says.
"Yeah we do. But how? " Dustin says.
"I remember something Max said when Vecna first had her. She was in his world. She managed to get into his head. He was surprised to have her there. Maybe we can use That again. Maybe umm maybe if we kill Vecna That way max will come out of her coma." Lucas says hopeful his eyes beginning to tear.
"We will buddy. We will get her back." Dustin responds seeing the pain wiped across face.
Me and Mike nod then exchange another glance. He is definitely going to hate me for lying about vecna. We turn away when we hear a knock on the front door.
"I umm... I invited the others." Dustin says.
We walk to the living room to see the whole gang sitting in the same positions as yesterday. Robin... I think thats her name?? Steve. Nancy. Jonathon. El.z Dustin. Lucas. Erica. Mike and me.
"We umm.. we came cause yesterday you know when well...." Nancy started to speak.
"When you started acting hella weird we realised Vecna is definitely not dead. And we need him dead... just the facts." Erica interrupts.
"Yeah, what she said." Steve looks back at me.
"We were thinking... well me and Lucas and Mike and will were thinking about the first time max got vecna'd..." Dustin starts to speak but his voice fades.
I look around the room to see everyone still there but with the absence of sound.
Shit. Not again. I turn to Mike his eyes fixated on mine as he can see the worry paved onto my face.
He mouths the words "you okay" in slow motion.My vision begins to blur: all I can now perceive is the sounds of voices. Voices of the past.
" what a fucking fairy. Dont fucking touch me pansy what if we get the queer touch? Dont want aids." Troys voice echoes across my mind.
"No son of mine is going to he a fucking fag. Now here take this baseball bat and play like any normal kid or I'll hit you again." My dads shouts penetrate my mind.
"Its not my fault you dont like girls." Mikes voice hurts the most. It was his fault.
What will he do if he finds out?
What will happen to us?
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"WILL?WILL ? Are you okay?" I hear Mikes voice as he shakes me.
"Huh yeah? Why?" I snap back into reality.
Everyones eyes are focused on me.
Shit. not again.
"Will?" Mike asks worried.
"Whats going on buddy?" Jonathon follows.
"We just want to be here for you." Mike says his hand still on my shoulder.
"Yeah man like something is obviously up.. talk to us." Lucas says.
"Im fine im Jusy tired-" I say.
"Okay im tired of this cut the bullshits either your seeings things or your on some kinda of drug." Erica shouts.
"IM FINE WHY CANT YOU ALL JUST LEAVE. YOU never cared BEFORE. why now?" I shout instant regret emerging in my heart.
Everyone goes quiet and exchange glances.
I walk out. Jonathon and Mike follow.
"Will?" Jonathon calls out behind me.
I turn.
"Whats going on with you? You can talk to us. To me?" Mike says.
"Nothing. Im its just been stressful recently thats all." I lie.
"Why wont you tell the truth? We just want to be here for you?" Mike says as Jonathon watches.
I say nothing.
"He is right. We love you will. We care. Remember when we used to talk as brothers? As best friends? I'm here to talk I already told you." Jonathon gives me a half smile.
"I- i just want to be left alone." I head to my room and slam the door behind me to hear Mike call after me.
Did he really care that much about me?
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I thought I lost you (byler)
FanfictionAfter the events of season 4 stranger things, Will must deal with the hardships of feelings he holds for his best friend as well as the torture vecna withholds onto him . Meanwhile, Mike begins to prioritise the struggles of Will and tries to figur...
