I thought I lost you (byler)

Confrontation

(MIKE POV)

Will slams his door.

I turn to Jonathon who is shocked.

"Maybe we should give him some time to himself then talk to him in an hour?" Jonathon looks towards me.

"No. Im going to talk to him. You stay here." I say while walking to wills room.

I need to know exactly what the fuck was going on with him. Word for word. No lies. No bullshit. The truth. He was in pain. I hate to see him in pain. I cant just watch him hurt and pretend everything is fine when it's not. Its not okay.

I barge into his room. Instinctively, he gets off his bed.

"Explain now." I try to keep a sense of composure.

"There isn't anything to explain." Wills eyes are still down. He look at me.

"Before Dustin and Lucas came you were going to tell me something.. what was it." I say annoyed.

"I- it was nothing MIKE JUST DROP IT." Will raises his voice.

"WHY WONT YOU TALK TO ME LIKE WE USED TO? remember CRAZY TOGETHER?DID THAT MEAN NOTHING?" I shout at him.

" It didn't to you... why should it to me?" He scoffs.

"What? Thats just not true." I say back confused.

"It is. All you ever cared about was Eleven. You only care about me when my life is endanger. When I'm missing. When I'm  possessed or when maybe vecna is about to get me. When my life isn't in danger you dont care. I don't blame you for it ; El is great. El is amazing. It's always been her." Will cries.

"Will I-" I'm speechless i didn't Know he had been keeping all these feelings. I know he felt like a third wheel at times.. he said in California but i didnt know it was that bad. I care about him. I had been so caught up in my relationship I didnt realise I was a cause of some of his pain.

"It's fine, Mike. Just leave. " Will says his face paved with regret.

"No you havent told me whats going on." I say calmly.

"Mike just leave it." Will sighs.

"WILL IM YOUR BEST FRIEND. I know I can be a dick all the time but I care. I do even if I dont show it all the time. TALK TO ME." I shout back.

"YOU don't know me Mike. YOU THINK YOU DO BUT YOU DON'T." Will cries.

"I do. I'm your best friend of course I do just say something. Talk to me. Don't push me away. Stop pushing me away." I shout back.

" You don't know me. " tears spill from Wills eyes as he repeats his words  pushing his hand  against my chest.

I say nothing.

"You want a confession? You want me to tell you all the shit that has been eating away at me for fucking years? How im a mistake? How you Make me feel like im not a mistake? or at least you used to. How it still ruins me knowing im a mistake? Knowing that I have been in love with you for years and the world would hate me for it if they found out. How you would hate me for-" he pauses his face tense with realisation as I still process his words.

Will liked me more that friends? For years? He likes guys ? He likes me? He is in love with me.

SAY SOMETHING MIKE DONT JUSY STARE SAY SOMETHING.

Wills' eyes nervously scan my face. I say nothing. I just stand in shock not quite sure the expression my face is making. Why can't I say anything? MICHAEL FUCKING SAY SOMETHING. I watch Will's face fill with regret as  more and more tears stream down his cheeks.