I thought I lost you (byler)

Bestfriends

MIKE POV

Shit shit shit.

Why am I always such an asshole?

I never say the right things.

I love Will I really do it's just.... to actually be with him and for people to even suspect we are together...I can't do it. I'm not used to being called.. names. When I heard my dad call me  what he did I panicked ;I felt myself implode.

Is that what everyone sees in me?

A queer.

I tried to hide it. I really did.

Now that I no longer have a girlfriend is that all they will ever see? They'll see through me. Soon everyone will know.

I'm such  an idiot.

Why did I shout at Will? Why did I say those things? I wish I was better at explaining how I feel. I wish I could express myself.

He probably hates me right now and rightfully so.

Shit I need to see him. I need to fix this. But it's already getting late and Jonathon probably won't even let me through the door.

I walk back into the house.

"Mike hey let's talk sweety you know your dad lost his job due to recent circumstances and he can say bad and rude thin-" my mom tries to plead with me.

"Whatever mom." I walk past her and towards my room slamming the door.

My dad is such an asshole.

How am I going to make it up to Will?

I pick up my walkie talkie. I haven't used it in forever but desperate times come for desperate measures.

"Hey umm guys... is anyone there, over" I speak into the walkie talkie.

"I'm here, over" Lucas speaks first.

"Yes, Mike? Over." Dustin follows.

Will please pick up. Please.

He doesn't.

"I was hoping maybe tomorrow we could have a sleepover to discuss plans for Vecna and to idk it's stupid but maybe like play some dnd...over " I say embarassed.

For a few seconds there is silence.

"Sure. That sounds great man. We can have it at mine... no offense but you dad is an asshole, over." Dustin says chuckling over the phone.

"Yeah, sure that sounds great."  Lucas says.

"You didn't say over, over" Dustin follows.

"Shut up dusty bun, over." Lucas laughs.

"I'm just saying!! . Anyways tomorrow 12:00 pm mine? Over" Dustin says.

"Can we do 1:00 instead? I'll be visitingMax in the hospital, over." Lucas says his saddening.

"Of course, over." I say then we all cut the walkie talkies. 

Tomorrow I have to see Will.

I have to fix things.

I head off to sleep thinking about Will and only Will.

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As soon as I wake up I gather my things I already told Mom about the sleepover at Dustin's but i have to see Will.

i have to.

Adrenaline courses through my veins as my priorities are based upon only one thing.

Will.