I thought I lost you (byler)

Open the door.

NOT ME TEARING up writing this one. Yeah go grab the tissues cause this is sad. I feel bad cause like Istg the whole story itself just gets sad and then sadder then you get happiness then it gets sad again... hope you enjoy.

MIKE POV

I watch as Will walks away. I can tell he is upset. I can tell he is on the verge of tears. I didn't mean to hurt him. I just. I can't.

"Mike." El nudges me and whispers.

"Huh." I look back at her.

"Remember what we talked about. Don't do this. Don't do this to my brother. " she looks at me: her eyes fierce.

Or course I remember what we talked about. It's all we that was on my mind throughout the whole movie. It's the reason. It's the reason I wouldn't  look at Will. I couldn't.

I remember.

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I walk into El's room and we both sit on her bed.

"You and Will. You kiss. The two of you. You kiss." She says calmly.

I sprout up.

She saw?

FUCK.

She saw.

She was going to tell everyone.

"What? What?We DIDNT. I mean we couldn't. Me and Will are friends. Friends don't kiss each other." I panic.

"Friends don't lie. " El says I can feel anger emerging in her tone.

"I'm not. I'm not lying. Me and Will we hugged. Closely. Our faces were close. It's not right. Its not right for guys and guys to well you know to... You are  probably just seeing things. Yesterday was stressful for everyone. Maybe you are still stressed.Under stress people can see things." I stutter and stumble on The lies that leave my mouth.

"I'm not stupid. I saw you. Friends don't lie, Mike. Now  let's sit and talk." El says. Her words are direct and sharp.

She isn't going to take any of my bullshit. Is she?

I sigh and sit on the bed: my hands shaking.

What if she tells someone?

What if she already has told someone.

El takes a hold of my hand.

"Mike, you know I could never hate you. Never. Why do you lie? It's not wrong to like who-" El starts.

"It is. It is wrong. What i did with Will ...outside. That was a mistake." I say looking down ashamed.

That was lie and I knew it.

It was the best thing I ever did.

I think it was one of the the most memorable experiences of my life.

But, it was wrong. It wasn't right.

It was a mistake.

"But, Mike. What's wrong with liking boys? I like boys too...You seemed happy with Will..." El places her hand on mine in an attempt of comfort.

"It doesn't matter." I move my hand as El now stares in shock. " I can't. I can't be with Will. I mean- you cannot tell anyone. I won't- I won't do anything like that again.. with him. It was a mistake. A stupid mistake." I feel my own words burn through my heart.