My Heart And Soul For You

Abusive relationships

I hate girls like me and by that I mean me
I blame everyone around me when the fault falls on me
I get pissed that I'm alone
But I don't like anybody

It eats me alive at night
Just trying to find the right
Mindset to keep me steady
But here I am falling apart already

I'm one greedy son of a gun
I get mad that I have fat
But feel sad when I don't eat
I think I'm getting bigger because I hold onto
what eats at me

I wish I wasn't such a bitch
And that I didn't like the pain
I keep chewing at my nails
Imagining my family screaming out my name

When they find me dead one day
With a letter next to me about how I couldn't fucking take
It, its too much for me
I cry myself to sleep at night every single day

I hyperventalate because I'm afraid I'm gonna die
Scared I'll drink myself to death or take my own life
I wish I loved myself, but its not what you may think of it
I'm alone because I love abusive relationships