My Heart And Soul For You

Mind monster

My hands grip my hair, grounding me, but to what?
Tears drip down, though my eyes are tightly shut
My floor, it cradles the imprint of my pain
My tears, now leaving an unremovable stain

My breath, it quickens and my heart begins to race
My thoughts, keeping up, with this unsteady pace
As my soul weeps in the sorrow hate has brought
There is a tear for every single thought

What if this, and what if that, will I ever be okay?
"Shh dont worry, they wouldnt care anyways"
Ah yes my demon, they've come out to play
It holds my hand to confirm, today will be a bad day

As the pain my brain is pumping out gets worse
And I wonder what I did to earn such a curse
" Hey, why dont we recite our phrase?"
My head is pounding, but I ignore the haze

" I will never be good enough, and it's really not okay
No matter how hard I work, I'll never be able to change
My heart does not account for all of the mistakes that I have made
Theres no point in talking about it, because you'll never go away"

It smiles, its pointed teeth a pearly white
It lifts my chin, wanting to look at my eyes
tracing the streaks on my face, I know its satisfied
Tired of this, I begin to rise

It can not stop me from this point on
I am safe until dusk reaches dawn
It waves bye, but not for the last time
I can never escape this monster in my mind