My Heart And Soul For You

At night I remember

As the sky grows darker and the silence tumbles in
I have found that what also comes is the pain I keep within
I close my eyes and try to fall into a land of dreams
But my mind has other plans and releases all my beasts

My eyes shoot open and the tears are free
Leaving steaming trails on my cheeks
All of my evil thoughts bombard my brain
I can only keep them away during the day

I suppose I don't mean to shut these thoughts out
My brain bisies itself and let's me continue to doubt
But at night when my mind has nothing to do
It brings out the dark things and calls out the deja vu

Because at night I remember
I remember Prince, my dog, my treasure
Uncle Kyle, and the things he wanted to change
Uncle Kieth, and his kids, and their pain

It hurts because I forgot that these things are real
I've been handed these cards but they aren't mine to deal
As the gears began to turn in my head
I suddenly remember that they're all dead

My sweetie, my puppy, met an end far too soon
My uncles, now dead, two unnecessary tombs
And my heart aches and my throat tightens
So continues the pulsing pain and my headache doesn't lighten

My ears are ringing with the thoughts of old memories
And ones that won't be created thanks to stopped heartbeats
I don't want to remember
But I have to remember

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