DEVOTION | L. FORGER

CHAPTER 15

"Oh my fucking God, What are you doing here Hatake?" I snap at Hatake.

Just when I thought this could've been one of the best days in my life, The heavens sent me a Hatake on my doorstep. This brings me back to the day me and Hatake were leaving the wedding ceremony, the day he snapped at me in the car for being close to Loid. It's not that I ever intended to keep it a secret from him or anyone, but I never found myself obligated to give any of them an answer.

"Me? Oh nothing Y/n, probably waiting for you outside your house for four fucking hours because you can't pick up your phone"

"My phone was on silent sorry" I continue, "But why are you here?"

Hatake looks a bit conflicted to answer but still manages to get a sentence out, "There is something important I must discuss with you"

"And that can't wait Hatake? Please meet me tomorrow in my office we'll discuss it more professionally"

"Oh darling, I think we are a little past professionalism no?"

I freeze. I finally got someone to call my own after a long time. I didn't want what Hatake and I had in the past to affect me and Loid in the present. Assuming that, my best option was to dodge any serious questions.

"W-what?"

"Don't act shy Y/n, tell your little boyfriend all the fun we used to have together before, all the times you ended in my bed, all the nights we shared, all the positions I put you in, the times we were in love"

"Stop it Hatake, why are you being like this? You need to leave right now"

"I am not going anywhere before you listen to me Y/n"

"Then say it here and leave as soon as possible!" I snap at him.

"Um Mr. Hatake I think you should leave, she doesn't seem very comfortable with you right now" Loid intertwined. I was honestly feeling a bit better when he took my side, despite the comments Hatake was throwing at me, yet I was worried about the possibility of having to answer any questions Loid asks about our prior relationship.

"Stay out of this pretty boy, must I remind you you're a mere toy for her, the second you try to control her or give her orders she's going to exit from your life to"

"Don't talk to him like that Hatake, and seriously I think it's time you leave"

Hatake rolls his head back letting out a rather frightening chuckle as he walks toward me mumbling something under his breath. As he reaches close enough, he grabs my upper arm pulling me towards him harshly. I let out a whimper when I feel his nails dig into my skin and his hold on my arm tighten. He looks back at me with evident anger in his eyes. For the first time, I am scared of Hatake.

"You just don't know when you listen do you Y/n? You can't even bother listening to something important I have to say, I must say I am impressed how big you're wings are grown, you are nothing but a small pawn, hopeless and helpless-"

My eye starts to tear at his harsh words, I try to process his words until he's cut with a hard punch on his left cheek. I look back with teary eyes to see Loid on top of Hatake, sending him punches after another. I try to get in the middle to stop them from killing each other. Only to have Loid push me away, "Stay out of this Y/n, you'll get hurt" he orders me.

Hatake takes advantage of this situation and lands a punch on Loid, bruising his pretty face and causing his lip to tear up. I sit there with tears rolling down my eyes, feeling useless. The words my father echoed to me once, now I see what he meant.

I stand up and grab Loid's shoulder, pulling him off Hatake, "Stop the two of you!" I scream at them causing them to pause for a second and look at me. "Hatake please leave, I do not want to talk or even look at you right now, please just go, get out of here"

Hatake looks as if he wants to say something, I take a good look at his face, seeing how badly Loid messed his face up. Hatake hesitates to get words out of his mouth and leaves with a heavy sigh, which partly gets some weight off my chest. I look back at Loid, who's staring into my soul with an unreadable expression, I wonder what he must be feeling but I could tell, the words Hatake threw at me were bugging him.

I grab Loid's hand, leading him to my house trying to medicate him. I take him to my bathroom, making him sit on the toilet seat while I sit back on the edge of the bathtub. I grab some disinfectant and gauze pads, cleaning his wounds and marks. Loid continues to look at me with that same unreadable emotion.

After I'm done treating him, I lean my forehead on his, sighing deeply, feeling a burn at the back of my throat.

"I am so sorry you had to see all of that and go through all of that. I swear, I had no idea he was gonna be here"

It's quiet, too quiet. I wish he'd say something rather than just stare at me. I sigh again and stand up to leave. Maybe it was space he wanted. Just as I was to leave he stops me, "I never knew, you and Hatake went that deep, like, you both seemed pretty close"

I stand next to the door, leaning on it, "I am sorry I never told you, this topic never came up and I also didn't seem to want to tell you"

"Why?"

"Because I like what we have, and after so long I genuinely feel happy. I had that feeling you'd leave or hate me or not want me if I told you"

"Why do you think I'd leave Y/n?"

"Everyone does" I whispers, it's beyond my understanding how he even managed to hear that.

He stands up from where he was seated, walking toward me and pulling me into an embrace. I couldn't help myself, the same stingy feeling came back and I started crying and sobbing on his chest. Holding onto the back of his shirt for dear life as he rubs my back and pulls me closer.

I don't know why or how, but this warm feeling inside me came back after God knows how many decades, which only makes me wonder, does Loid feel the same way?

He picked me up, and we both laid out on my bed, tangled up with each other, blankets thrown over here and there, and for the first time after so long, I felt safe in someone's arms.