𝙹𝚊𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚒 𝙺𝚊𝚒𝚊 𝚃𝚊𝚝𝚎 - a month later
I didn't go to her funeral.
I couldn't. I could never see my baby like that. I can't stop crying. I just keep thinking about her.
I've been in a dark place ever since. I can't move, get out of bed. My body feels weak without her here.
I need her. I want her here with me. I need Yajara.
But I can't have her. She's gone.
I talk to her everyday at her gravesite.
It's so beautiful I'm so glad she's finally at peace with herself.
I want to be a peace with her. I can't live like this anymore.
I stayed in my house for a while.
I heard someone knock at my bedroom door .
"Go. Away." I said putting the blanket over me.
"Jabrii unlock the door." Said a familiar voice.
It was my dad.
When my mom died I did basically the samething except I kept trying to run away to see her at a hospital she wasn't at.
It killed me. Him and Jabril to seeing me that way.
I got up and unlocked it.
"God you look like hell." He said stepping in.
"Get the fuck away from me. I thought I told you ion fuck with you." I said.
"Yeah well your sleeping in your dead girlfriends hoodie ." He said sitting on the bed.
"She is my wife." I said sternly to him.
"Sorry, your 'wife'." He said sarcastically.
"Why are you here Jarell ?" I quizzed.
"Because you need me."
I laughed. Like hollered type shit. He really thinks I need him.
"I don't fucking need you. Now get the fuck out my house." I said getting up to open the door.
"Jabrii sit down." He said voice booming.
I looked at him and raised my right eyebrow.
"Get out." "Your gonna have to beat me first."
Now I don't think this is a good idea to be fighting my dad. But fuck Jarell.
"Cool. The gloves are in my closet."
He grabbed them and tossed a pair to me.
I put my guards up and we started boxing right in the middle of my floor.
I forgot how strong he was. I haven't boxed my dad in a while.
He gave me smooth punches as I hooked him and threw haymakers.
When I knew i couldn't beat him I started to cry. Like cry for real.
He took off the gloves and walked over too me. I dropped to my knees on the ground and screamed.
It was ear piercing too.
Why did this happen to me ? How could this happen to me ?
All I could keep asking was why why why ?
Why Yajara ? What did she do to deserve this ?
He stooped on the ground and hugged me tight. He gave me the hug Yajara gave me when we to the graveyard.
"Jabrii listen to me. You have to learn to let go."
"But pops I can't. I can't let her go. I just wanted her to be fined forever.......and now she's gone." I said sobbing once more.
He kissed my forehead and soothed me but nothing could help the pain I was going through.
I just needed her here.
But she couldn't be.
Because she was dead.
In memory of 𝚈𝙰𝙹𝙰𝚁𝙰 𝙹𝙾𝚁𝙻𝙴𝙴 𝚂𝙸𝙼𝙼𝚂
𝙵𝚎𝚋𝚛𝚞𝚊𝚛𝚢 𝟸𝟾𝚝𝚑 - 𝙳𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝟹𝟶𝚝𝚑
We love you so much Yajara. Gone but never forgotten ❤️🕊.
