I had recently moved.
For obvious reasons,
I feel separated from my friends.
I know it's kinda in my head because we still talk and joke over text.
I guess it's because less and less of us are talking over text.
I understand, we have jobs and other duties to one's self or family.
I guess it's because I'm still hung up over other things that had happened.
Specifically about someone I liked.
When I was in high school,
My group had split in two over selfish reasons.
Friendships don't last forever and even if someone were to move away,
We would still talk as long as both sides made an effort to talk to each other.
I feel like it's my fault this person,
The one I liked,
Hasn't reached out to me.
Once again,
It's a two way road and I could text them.
I'm just scared they wouldn't answer,
Or they will push my aside.
I don't know if this person has talked to anyone else in our friend group.
I haven't forgotten about her.
I don't want to.
I'm just scared of ruining things further.
I'm starting to think,
There's something wrong with me.
That maybe,
I'm not meant for anyone and no one is meant for me.
I've been happier by myself anyways.
Having someone who cares for me,
A friend does fine.
A relationship just isn't in my cards right now.
I'm ok with being by myself.
If I move in with anyone, it's a roommate.
Well,
Main point is,
I hope my friends and I can plan something to do together.
Anything really.
A game day.
A facetime.
I just miss them.
