I ruined fucking everything
We could've been great together
Not like that, but as friends
I wish I could go back and erase those feelings
I wish we met later on
Why were you so sweet
Why did you happen to be charming,
So smart,
So dumb,
So funny,
Why did I think you'd share the feeling
I have so many questions now
Why don't we talk about Supernatural
The show you said I should watch
Did you stop watching Supernatural because I started watching
Why did you cut your hair
Did you cut your hair because I liked it
I just want to smile with you again
I noticed you don't smile as much anymore
Why do you talk to my friends more than me
I don't mind if you talk to them it's just
Just say more than Hi to me
Why don't we text
Do you not trust me
Why don't we just text and chat
I missed our dumb conversations that meant the world to me
I missed how we bonded over things
I thought we could just be friends
But
I
RUINED
EVERYTHING
I ruined it by telling you my feelings
We couldn't bounce back
I couldn't bounce back
I miss walking home with you just so we could talk
I miss your hair
I never got to draw you
That photo is long forgotten
I can't remember where the portrait I made of you is
You denied it
It was my first portrait I've ever made
You were my first
First dance
First portrait
The First boy I wanted to be with because
I got too close
I got the wrong signals
I misinterpreted them
It's all my fault I suffered
It was all my fault that you have this
Thing looming over you
Because it cares about you
Because it wants to stay friends
Because
Because of me
I ruined everything
You left your scar on me
You made me happy
Why did you come
You could've just stayed home
But you came to the dance anyway
I would've gotten the message
Why did you leave me with pieces of you
Supernatural
DJ Okawari
Supernatural has changed my life
When I felt alone, it made me feel strong
When I was sad, it gave me something to smile about
You don't even bat an eye when I mention Supernatural
You just decided to stop sharing with me
Thoughts
Feelings
Interests
I wish I could stop
thinking
I wish we never met
I read somewhere that
they call it a crush because
you only share feelings in tv-shows
then that's how you are left feeling
crushed
Could there be any way I could fix this
What if I just didn't confess
Keep my feelings bottled in like I usually do
Choke those emotions down my throat
and just be happy when you found someone else to care about
Maybe that's why
because I worry so much
When I get worried I wonder about that person
you
another friend
I worry
At least she wanted to talk to me
you simply replied
Don't worry about it
Pushed me away
I haven't seen you in a while and not just me
Others too
When you decide to include yourself in someone's life
They tend to get worried
At least let them know you're ok
I guess you're just that kind of person
I just wanted to say
I'm sorry
