I don't like showing my tears.
I look away or try sucking them back in.
I don't like being weak.
I don't want to show the wrong people my weaknesses.
I suck things up if I can,
so people won't know what breaks me.
Yea,
I'll cry at a sad movie,
or if someone close is gone.
I just don't want to let people know what breaks me down,
what little things stress me out,
bursts my bubble,
so on.
I act tough and
try to push through without shedding a tear.
Sometimes I can't.
If you see me,
red, puffy eyes about to cry.
If you see me,
stressed and frustrated.
If you see me about to break,
hug me.
Let me cry into your chest instead of crying out loud, let me hide my pain.
Don't ask me if I'm ok,
I'm obviously not.
With the person I am,
I want to lash out sometimes.
I want to scream at whoever cause my pain,
I wanna bash their heads in,
I wanna corner them and
scream until they go deaf.
But,
I won't because sometimes my pain with overshadow my anger,
sometimes not.
So if you know what happened,
who is to blame in the scenario,
keep them far away,
I don't want to hear them,
see them,
I don't want to cause more pain than they have,
I want to be a better person than they are.
So,
hold me,
let me cry,
isolated from the rest of the world,
don't let anyone talk to me,
if I choose you to show this weakness to,
don't make me regret trusting you.
