It seemed that i had been swimming in a dark abyss of sadness and confusion. I needed to wake up. that's all i really knew. i had to go back to my mother. It seemed like hours that i was asleep, Piper and my mom had been coming into my room talking to me, begging me to come back, i just didn't know how to. I could hear my mom talking to me about how she was sick, i new she was sick although i never thought that it was bad. i heard Piper come into the room, she sat on my bed. She was talking to me for a while i couldn't make out her words, all i heard was "your mom is gone..."
I managed to move my hand, which i think frightened her because she jumped off the bed.
I tied harder to open my eyes, and I succeeded. the bright light hurt my eyes and i wanted to look around but my eyes couldn't move, i felt something in my throat as i tried to swallow, i lifted my hand to examine it but i couldn't gather enough strength. i noticed someone at the end of my bed, it was Piper. She looked horrible, she looked thinner and she had dark circles under her eyes and she was wearing all black, to my surprise she was covering all of her cleavage. She looked at me in horror, she tried to speak, but her tongue was holding back her words.
"m-" I tried to speak, and i couldn't. The tube inside my throat made it impossible. Piper sat next to me and I managed to push a word out of my lips. "Mom" I said, I wanted her to tell me that i had heard wrong. That my mom was here and that she would be coming to see me. Horror filled my body, Piper kept crying. The words I wanted to hear would never come out of her mouth. I felt limp and I stared to doze off, i tried to resist. Before I knew it a doctor was over me, he had some cold metal pressed on my chest and my ribcage. Everything was blurry and slow, I saw a bright light it looked so peaceful. Was it heaven? What could it possibly be?
I heard the doctors around me, I heard Piper crying. I couldn't die. I had to go back, and some how i did. I heard my heart monitor start up again, and i heard the doctor tell the nurse to give me some type of medication. I drifted into sleep and when I woke up I could finally open my eyes. I saw Piper and Katerina sitting in the chairs next to my bed.
"Piper" I said faintly, my voice was harsh and low. She woke up, and smiled.
"you're awake! its been so long..." she said holding my hand, Katerina was also awake and sitting on my bed.
"Silly its only been a few days." I said I felt dizzy and thirsty.
"No, hun...its been over 5 months..." her words were like bricks. I had been out for over 5 months. Was that possible? I didn't even know what had happened that day that I fell into the abyss of darkness. I had so many questions.
"Thats not possible, what happened to me? What day is it? Wheres my mom? Why am I here?" Piper looked at Katerina as if she was going to tell me all the answers to my questions and more.
"Rebbecca shot you that day at the baseball game.... Shes in prison for attempted murder.." she hesitated. Its June 23 and you were in a coma. You lost so much blood and you died for 5 minutes on the way here." She missed one question. I knew the answer but I was still in denial. I avoided asking the question afraid to hear her answer.
"How is Rebbecca in prison?"
"She turned 18 on March remember?"
I did remember that we were planing something big for her 18th birthday I guess I never really took it serious. I never payed any attention to anything that had to do with her. I noticed Katerina whisper into Pipers ear.
"I think we should be direct with her abou-" Piper cut her off.
"So! How do you feel!? You hungry?" She said. She looked distraught.
"Be blunt with me.." My throat felt dry. "How's my mom..?"
Her words were unclear. I only heard the word death and I began to cry.
"H- how!"I tried to get up but I couldn't feel my legs.
"Cancer..." She said trying to sit next to me.
Cancer? She never told me about it. Why? I noticed my legs had no feeling, they were numb. Why? I didn't care I pushed myself off the bed and hit the floor with a loud thump. The wires and my anesthesia fell over me, Piper and Katerina ran next to me a tried to help me up, the floor felt so cold and hard. I needed to be alone.
"Go away please." I told them. "I need to be alone."
"Alright, well be outside..." Piper said as she was closing the door.
I laid in bed for what seemed like hours, reminiscing the good times me and my mother had. After my father had left, we had become closer. We promised each other to never have to depend on anyone or anything, that it was us against everyone in this sick world.
"Momma....." I looked up as if she was in the room with me. "Momma I miss you.." My throat still felt harsh, my body was weak and all the crying had made me sleepy, I laid down and passes out. I woke up in a beautiful garden, it was covers in roses and daises. I saw my mom and a few children at the other side of the lake that looked dirty and full of insects, the only way to get to her was to swim through it, I heard a faint voice like a warning telling me to not go into the water. That it wasn't real, but I ignored it and jumped in the lake anyway.
