I went over to Carolyn's house for dinner, she had cooked one of her mothers recipes which in my mind i thought that it wouldn't help her get any better. She always talked about her mom and how much she missed her. I understood her sorrow, I felt her misery. i saw what she thought she could hide. i saw her cuts along her arm, i saw the cuts along her hips. I had seen them when she reached up to grab the pepper from the top shelves. i didn't want to get so much into her business, I mean we were still friends.
"So..How did you like the food? i mean its not the same as my moms, and i know i probably over dosed on the salt...Sorry for that." she smiled, she looked so happy, but if you looked at her eyes, her beautiful brown eyes, you could see pain and sorrow, you could see that inside she was fighting and she wasn't doing so well. I noticed that since she had left the hospital that she had a bad habit of biting her nails, she bit them to the point where they would bleed.
"I loved it!" i said smiling at her. She was good. She was nice and even if it was her first time cooking one of her moms meals, she did a great job.
"Well I'm glad you liked it Micael"she looked at me, she was looking right into my eyes and every inch of me filled with chills. Her beauty was stunning. I smiled at her and in return she giggled. We had gotten closer since we had met in the hospital. Her friend apparently had cut off all communication with her after she realized that i was interested in Carolyn that day in the hospital.
"Well my beautiful lady, i gotta head back to the hospital to visit Vanessa, I gotta see her before i head to work. Ill call you so we can set up another date." I winked at her and i saw her blush.
" Alright! And another date it shall be !" She winked back at me as i headed out the door. On my way to the hospital to see my little sister, all I could think about was Carolyn. I had never felt this way before, i had met really beautiful girls back when i lived in Colorado, but none of them had ever caught my eye. She was the one. I knew she was, and i wanted to confess to her how i felt, but this wasn't the time. I had to wait a few weeks, even months before I let my feelings out.
I got a text message from her:
-You left me alone to clean up...Lol...you re so cruuuel!
-No you cooked so you clean ;)
- (-.-)
-Lol i promise you ill clean up next time.
- are you driving and texxting! shame on you haha
-you texted me first!
-alright ill let you go then.
-No don't let me go.
-LOL
-im being serious. Don't let me go and i promise you i wont let you go.
- I wont let you go.
-Good, cause if you did, id have to kick your butt.
-oh please. I gotta go finish cleaning, take care, later :D
I wrote "wait don't go, i think i like you" but then i erased it, and typed down "Wait i think i love you..." but i erased that as well and all I sent was "bye"
It was crazy how in on split second my entire life had changed. I had seen this innocent girl in a wheelchair in my sisters room and i had just spoken to her once, and now every time i thought of her I got this weird feeling. I got to the hospital and went into Vanessa's room.
"You're late! its 2:03." she looked annoyed.
" I was with Carolyn, sh-"
"ooooooh my god! oh my god! tell me all about it! is she your girlfriend?" she wiggled her eyebrows at me.
"Noo...Not Ye-"
"When is she gonna be your girlfriend! You too look cute. You like her right! I know you do." She knew me so well, she was only 12, but she knew me. She was right though, i did like Carolyn, I liked her a lot.
