What was it about him that made me still care? Why did him falling apart in front of me make me all confused? He didn't mean any of his words and I knew that. I just, I don't know why seeing him caused my feelings to surface again. I thought they were gone. I felt like he was a completely different person. His eyes had no life. I swore to him that I would never let him go or that I would ever stop loving him. When I said goodbye, I knew that that would be the last time of ever hear his voice or maybe even see him, but he put a knife in my back. He had completely screwed me over.
"That was Vic," I said to my mom as I felt the tears streaming down my face."you never met him, but I'm glad you didn't. He's bad news mum. He's the worst, the type of guy you warned me about."
I saw the glass of whiskey Vic had left it was full, I grabbed at and drank it. I felt the urge to drink more.
"I'll come back tomorrow okay mom. Tonight I wanna get away for a while.." I kissed her stone and headed to my car, I felt a stare on me and the night suddenly turned cold, I opened my car door and in the reflection of the window I saw Vic, I turned around and by the time my eyes met his he had forced his lips on mine. His grip on my arms was strong and it hurt, i tried to pull away with all my strength, but he just seemed to get stronger.
"You're mine. I'm never letting you go remember." His breath was full of whiskey.
"Let me go" he looked at me and I turned away.
"Kiss me, kiss me one more time and look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me."
I knew he was testing me. I couldn't kiss him. I knew that if I did, I probably would forget all the bad things he had done to me. He leaned foward and waited. I let out a deep breath and I kissed him. I closed my eyes and told myself that I didn't feel anything, that he meant nothing to me anymore, but my heart pounding and my hands shaking told a completely different story. He had given me the best times of my life. He had been the first person I had been completely in love with. It began to rain and it seemed like I had my lips pressed on his for hours, I felt the drips of water flow down my face and I pushed away from him.
"This isn't fair! Why do you do this to me!? Do you want to see me suffer all the time!? Why can't you just let me be happy!" He hugged me so right I couldn't escape his grasp. "I loved you! I loved you through everything Vic and you didn't care. Please just let me go."
"I can't let you go. I won't let go, not until you look me in the eyes and tell me you don't love me."
I clenched my jaw and held my fist so hard I swore I could have broken it. I wiped the rain drops from my face and looked him in the eyes. His eyes were so dull, they reminded me of death. His brown eyes that had once comforted me and made me feel safe were now tearing me apart. I gave him a hard look then I pushed the words out of my mouth.
"I, I don't love you. I did, but you made sure that all of my love for you died." I let out a fake smile. "Thanks though, for being such a big lesson in my life." I began to walk away. I opened my car door and looked back at him. He was standing there in the rain, he looked like a statue. I drove off into the dark rainy road. I played Pierce The Veils Bulletproof Love. I broke down in the middle o the road and pulled over, I couldn't believe that I had just seen victor, that I had just kissed him and told him that I didn't love him. I didn't know what to do, my mind kept racing and Piper, Piper was dead..She really was dead. I couldn't believe that. I heard voices in my head yelling at me 'it's your fault', 'she's dead because of you!'
"I'm going mad." I said.
I heard a voice inside my head "you were mad since before all of this honey"
