My Monster 👿

16- I Fucking hate myself

You are mad at me..

Nandani, I am sorry.. I didn't mean to be a dick to her, I was just frustrated on all that is going on..

Wait a minute, did I heard just right, did Manik Malhotra, The Manik Malhotra just apologized to me.

You were very mean to her, but since the asshole you are and being nice doesn't come easy to you, I will let this one slide..

Why are you here?

I couldn't sleep knowing that you are going to bed being mad at me.

Why does it matter, isn't that how you are?

Why do you ask so many questions?

Why do you not answer and why you are here Manik?

Didn't I just tell you?

I am talking about why you are still with me. didn't you say we need to stay away? You said I have to stay away from Malhotra's then why you are here Manik? Why are you always around? Why were you there that night?

Cause I can't stay away from you Nandani and I hell for sure Can't let you die... I can't...

I opened my eyes and stare out in space, it hurts, it fucking hurts, I never knew I was capable of feeling all this pain but I do, I feel it every single day that's the reason I caged myself in that cave and planned to be there for eternity but that face got to me again...

That was the day when we kissed for the first time and I might sound too girly right now, but it was like firework exploded in my heart. Thats how she used to make me feel. I could have never gotten enough of her. It wasn't like I was never with a girl before I met her, heck I am 500 years older obviously I had my fair share of women one was even, well not open that gate for now...

The truth is that I miss my Kitten, it feels like a part of me died with her that day, I hate myself more every single day thinking that even being the strongest creature on earth, I couldn't save her and she was ripped apart right in front of me... I fucking hate myself. Only if I wouldn't have been that stupid and wouldn't have come up with that plan. Only if I would have never left her alone that day, only if I could have done it in a better way, only if!!!!

I sighed remembering Morning events when I woke up in her bed, it was a very very bad move. Gosh, I can't believe I shared a bed with her. I have never slept on a bed same as other girls apart from my Kitten but now I did spend a night with her.

I try my best to avoid her. I did get close to her group in the past few days but tried to stay as far away from her as possible but things don't turn out mostly as I plan, she always comes bugging me or I find my way back to her, how I still have no idea about.

Thinking of her, what happened last night couldn't be ignored, she moved that damn chair and that indicates only one thing, but I am confused how come she doesn't know anything about it cause she looked too scared and confused about everything last night...

I have to talk to Sia today before Nandani gets herself in trouble. I was chilling behind the Music Wing as there was time for the school to start when I heard her shriek, "What the Fuck... Holy Moly, you fucking twat..." There were two-three voices shrieking out and I know it was FAB5.

I came out to check what the hell happened when I found all four of them on the floor glaring at the two most stupid people at this school, Harshad and Soha who were laughing.

"Wow, when I just thought, we all are adults now, got proved wrong by the Asshole and his slut..." Nandani scowled making me chuckle and soon all of their attention was on me. I came forward and helped four of them to stand, they were tripped by the marbles on the floor, which I know these two idiots set up.

Cabir - Harshad I knew you hide your feeder in that bag but didn't know you play with marbles too, want me to fetch you jellies also?

Harshad - Watch it you, Joker

Manik - You better watch your tone, while talking to my family.

I growled and could see Nandani's surprised eyes while the other three just have soft smiles, Dang it am I turning into some softie. Well, They are Sia and Abhay's kids and they are my family and I will protect them no matter what.

Harshad - And the freak new kid finally spoke something

Mukti - Call my Brother that again and see how your soul leaves your body

I fluttered at the word brother coming out of her mouth.

Soha - Shutup, you tomboy...

Abhimanyu - Enough Soha... Both of you just Back off

Harshad - Just because you like this bitch doesn't mean you have to stand up to your own cousin Abhi

They both are cousins, that's strange, I looked at Mukti who looked on the verge of crying, I pulled her close and she shake back her tears giving me a smile. Aliya and Cabir came closer holding on to her.

Soha - Seriously though you could have done better.

I want to break her face but my eyes fell on Nandani, who hasn't said a word and was looking fumingly at her. Her eyes flickered to the Chandelier above Soha's head and then back to her and I immediately knew what was coming. I pushed Soha out of the way seconds before that Chandelier fell making everyone gasp in shock but the one standing with terror in her eyes was Nandani Taylor. "Come on let's get you out of here..." Moment everyone scurried out of there, I pulled her away, Time for a talk Sia Taylor...

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