As you know my parents were heavy drinkers supposedly according to my brothers and I agree with them on that one. One taught me a drive a vehicle into a living room the other didn't teach me to cook and I was screwed over more or less I was still spoiled brat and I was able to get what I want but I didn't get what I needed which was social and life skills. I had to learn social skills through Facebook and my space in space Siri when I was younger and still do to this day I have very limited amount of friends because of these dang bats. I hate to call my parents or my late parents ding bats but besides the point they were tweedle do and tweedle dumb that's basically who they were they are not leave any documentation of my disabilities or mental illnesses they just everything went to the wayside after they went to the nursing home because they were fucking drunk all the time. Tweedledum and Tweedledum always drank and I just far as the fact that they drank another song I'm gonna mention is all Is a drug free alcohol free sober sober for 33 years of my life as juggalette. Well I couldn't say it was 33 years but I've been 33 years since the day I was born till right now sober stoned cold never done anything except for coffee which I'm on right now because I'm bouncing over the walls right now and can't sleep but that's about the only voice I have. But I was juggled that I don't do anything that is NSFW or legal or drug related or alcohol related I just try to live a good life the way the Insane Clown Posse tries to even in their violent lyrics tell them how to live a decent life. And I represent and I've been down with the clown since I was six years old. A juggalette is a female version of the fan of the Insane Clown Posse at juggalette is like a Juggalo but only a female. The insane clown polishy would fall under the term horror cor wrap or alternative wrap. They are my idols because they tell it as it is and they express themselves freely do they get a good wrap for being themselves and telling the truth you answer is no because the fbi call their fans A gang which is a pilot shit. I have never the only thing I ever did that was violent or illegal was punched the kid who called me a retard in spaz out in the cock shocker particularly in the mouth actually so that was the only difference between my self in a gang member or any other juggalo or lette for that matter I decide I am peaceful and stuff and I am law biting just because I listen to a certain kind of music does not make me accredmin unless it's white power band and a fuck don't get me started on white power bands what the hell is white anyway. I have Caucasoid features but I am full Mongoloid Asian by DNA so there's really no such thing as goddamn white. We're all a bunch of March so let's just except the fact that we're a bunch of mites. Because there's no such thing as white pride or white power in my opinion I do find that very offensive that people still think there is purebred white people won the range. Sooner or later there's gonna be an ancestor that's gonna pop up or an ethnic group that's gonna pop up in your DNA that's going to say that you're mixed. I am mixed race I don't listen to white power bands because that's a pile of shit everyone has some colour in them whether they like it or not they just sometimes deny it I don't deny it I flaunt my colours. When I flaunt my colour is the meaning ethnicityass my Asian ethnicity I end up deciding I was going to be proud of who I am and that's what it's going to be if no one liked it they to have to stay home and shove it.
My thoughts are that people should be equal and stuff in the jugglo's and juggle lads are the same on this they hate Nazi's and white power people because they're a bunch of bullshitters as a juggalo or juggalo you do not see a colour age just see a person a homey a friend potential friend I don't really give a shit or you might see a hater or what we call a chicken but that's about the size of it we don't go around sheen colours we'll see either a lover or a hater and that's beside the point that's all we are to the rest of the world we go see the world as one colour wiki Juggalo or human. My race say would be human my religion kindness my politics love and my IQ genius well super genius because it's 196. This is not a bullshitter this is the truth. In my orientation as well what I told you I was auto romantic auto sexual and that's just the way it is. I don't have any way of saying who I how I'm different or want to say how I'm different I'm unique that's the way it is and that's why I'm goth if you don't like the fact that you're fucked the fuck off because that's what I think about Reagan people who hate other people because of their religion ethnicity or because of the subculture I belong is it to subcultures Juggalo and goth. Mostly girls comes out the ju Juggalo just hang around my neck as a bling.
There is this song about racism by the insane sound party that is called bleep your rebel flag I've had enough of swearing for one box so that's the side to point bleap your rebel flag you fill in the blank there you go you know what that means the bleedppart the F word. And we're not a gang a gang is someone who is menacing and terrible almost like terrorists but drug Lowe's address trying to spread the law and try to spread decency around the world even though also thep do you insane clown posse is violent lyrics as I said my parents haven't been the right people either they might've been subject to some of the songs as well you drunk fucking bastard or a drunk fuck and bitch how dare you leave your kids alone to be strippers or something along the lines of that. Dad and I agree with the lyrics because that's true it depends on how you cope with things choose your own fate maybe you might turn out differently if you choose it differently and create and be yourself and help yourself to drinking or snoring or shooting up or smoke in your problems away. That's what I think about that. . I don't believe that haters hate groups and terrorist groups should be around I think they should leave the rebel flag or screw the rebel flag as I said I've had enough of swearing for one friggin bark. I'm getting tired of swearing so I'm going to say there is. Another thing I'm trying to do is not swear but as I said it's so damn hard when there's so many chickens out there or haters or terrorists or gang members are people will take a vantage of other people and use mental illness as an example of their behaviour when will either they know what the hell they're doing it drives me nuts. I the only really bad mental illness is Did or dissociative personality disorder that makes you actually are quite dangerous. But and I agree with that because of the can't remember the name of the guy but he it was a 24 monsters on me or 17 monsters in me on Netflix and you have to watch that yourself to get my draft I think it was Bobby something or another his name more than he was a serial killer and he had a DId which is like a way off the scales form of PTSD where you're mines with different personalities I really had that a couple times in my life or my personality or my brain has nearly split into different personalities and I can actually named them. But in return back and fused back right away because I'm low-key usually what happens voices it was a time when I had a really rough time and I have having a doctor named Lisa a psychotic doctor named Lisa popping in my brain and then bubble Z angry teenager but other than that I was normal and they fused back into my original personality and I never had the idea again it was just a momentary DID or dissociative identity disorder that I only have the one time but I'm not going to make a stink about it. It was a time where am I stress was so toxic. That just my mind snapping at three. But it had returned back to normal within a few months and I never had to get a diagnosis for that thank god because I would me another fucking med to take.
I don't fake happy sayings like I have had quite a few issues in my life that have caused me to split momentarily or fracture momentarily. Sometimes they come as a defensive personalities that's what they usually are a defence of personalities but I've never had any undesirable personalities just the way I was but it was just one whole month of pure shit and I was a real shithead at the time and I didn't wanna admit it and then the next thing you know cooled off my jets and I actually was able to fuse back to myself. That is about the only song I sorry for a weird and you were out but that's basically the case of this. I remember the month it was in April May it was a shit show for me because it was him the guy from Burkina Faso the jihadist was threatening me with slow dismemberment. And I was a guy that my mother was flirting with her on wine and was drinking herself to death for. That was the only time I split or switch or whatever you wanna call it.
I am now a lot better I just have PTSDI never really hit switch anymore I used to switch a lot when I was younger and I said the last time I switched with three years ago on April on the bastard threaten me with a slow death. And that was very graphic news to hear on Facebook and I had to make a new Facebook under a new name and that's when I switch from the final time. I still think I may have gone undiagnosed but as I said I don't really give a shit I'm in a better place now. That's what matters.
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sufi | book 2
Non-FictionSufi wakes up to the sound of her mother's disembodied voice indicating her death is near eminent that is her adoptive mother. From the joy of finding a foul ball at the Ottawa Titans game to find out that her mother was dying to her modeling career...
