Since finding out about my mothers death I have decided to track my moods by having a journal kind of like a bullet journal but it has more pictures in writing that I have no indications of how pissed off or happy I am so that's basically the case of it I have neglected it for the past few days because I was so busy but I'm gonna get back at that pretty soon nothing had been very eventful but I know this for a fact that I'm gonna be going to the recycling centre to get some used clothing because some of the clothing I have read are offending people NSFW are used by accident or they are too big either way they're too small or too big and it's movies over Canada for me and I just can't stand that Cañada Street does not need a second moon over it already has the natural satellite it doesn't need to see my ass so I just saw it and also one of my shirts was just being destroyed by my broad shoulders I might not look like I have broad shoulders being 105.5 pounds but that's besides the point I have a Lotta Marshall for a person my size and that's because I'm Asian. I'm also freakishly flexible I've heard of a condition that has that that has loose skin but I don't have blue skin my skin is still pretty tight what that's for sure the point as far as wrinkles are concerned but anyway that's what it is is I'm flexible and strong like a dancer or martial artist the Astros where I am freakishly naturally and I mean that in a good way. That's why I was so good at martial arts when I was younger what is the fact that I was able to go and punch the shit out of some thing to call myself down not to incite violence for two help with the yard and made me strong and flexible to the point where I was always going to be flexible and strong but I was a strong little witch to begin with when I was a kid when I was going around putting myself in the pretzel position or doing yoga or some thing I was always flexible and putting my foot over my hair appointment foot in my mouth literally not figuratively. I've always been number one flexible and destructively strong. I was able to lift the kids Chesterfield when I was 14 years old because I wanted to be in the FBI so badly that was my dumbbells for when I was 14 years old and pretty soon when I was in high school I was dabbling in bodybuilding but it wasn't professional bodybuilding or I'd have my picture taken for magazines it was just for mindfulness and help me calm down from certain things. Every time I go out and shit I decide to lift weights or do a stretch instead of having to go around causing more shit or making myself feel sorry for myself I found out what real beauty was which was curves being a little bigger than usual that's why I'm big positive I'm not a fan of the skinny skinny skinny people that look amazing Syrian stuff they're not my favourite type of people and you're probably wondering why. Because some little shithead in my school decided he was going to bring an autopsy video of an anorexic nervosa woman and it terrified the shit out of me and I said I rather go big or go home. It was either I get fat or muscular or I wasn't going to get anywhere in life if I had a life to begin with. It was so frightening and I said the most important best friend for a girl is breakfast lunch and dinner forget the fucking make up or jewellery that comes after breakfast and then you have your lunch and then you have your dinner and then you do things in between and that's about the size of it that's how you look good in my opinion is by eating first then play after or work after I don't give a really rats ass just so long as you at least three times a day eating. And that little brat I am very thankful for him because he had shown me what real beauty is supposed to be about not allowed the physical is supposed to be virtual on the inside that counts and what you eat. I.e. a mixture of healthy and junk food is very interesting I got the flavours of the world and it's very important and I look better than the average bear should I see the real girls eat food real girls wear clothing the real girls don't go NSFW and the real girls don't make themselves puke. If anything that above thing that real girls don't do will kill someone right away I don't believe in showing off my boobs or showing off whatever that is an SFW or even as much as going around starving myself because I have to look like Britney Spears or because I have to look like Christina Aguilera well guess what I like food tattoos and piercings make up clothing and a good smile and that's about the size of it I could give a shit less about your fucking body weight or your fucking body say but I don't give a damn. Just as long as you're happy with yourself and your body positive like me I'm fine but if you're gonna be a negative Nelly and say oh I'm too fat blah blah blah blah blah then I'm not gonna bother with that shit and bother with the negativity because that's just going to lead to and will lead to a dead end emphasis on dead end and that is no joke with that you end up dead faster than you can say fuck.
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sufi | book 2
Non-FictionSufi wakes up to the sound of her mother's disembodied voice indicating her death is near eminent that is her adoptive mother. From the joy of finding a foul ball at the Ottawa Titans game to find out that her mother was dying to her modeling career...
