sufi | book 2

a rude awaking

Now you know with my PTSD that I'm usually one for nightmares to have when I go to sleep even especially when I'm stressed out but I didn't know exactly what was going on when I heard the disembodied anglicated voice of my mother's last breath I thought he was dead right then and there but was not he was hanging by a threat according to my brother. But I said that I heard her ghostly voice he did not believe me one bit and I was annoyed by this because of his atheism. I'm not wanting to be atheist but then again I'm not one to be religious either so I don't bother with either one I'm just spiritual and that means I believe in the Supernatural as well as you probably have known in the other past Buck I am very scared when I was waking up in the dark after hearing that dying sigh.   I was in a picture of a mood already as it is as you can tell and I can tell that I was going to be even worse because I ended up meeting someone on Plenty of Fish who's going to really fuck up my life.   His name was brat he was a horrible person to begin with and Brett was one to be cheating on women and then making them look psycho so I ended up not going on Plenty of Fish anymore I call it plenty of fuckers.   And I couldn't bring myself to go back on that app or site whatever you want to call it so I ended up deciding to get me a pick-me-up because of the weeks events with my mother's near passing and my latest break up with the worst person on the planet. Looking up a photo shoot free photo shoot on Facebook and that got me interested in modeling soon enough I was on Model Mayhem and was allowed to be on model Mayhem. I took the name Elena Tibetan in honor of my Tibetan roots. I ended up deciding that I was going to build up a portfolio. When I was doing it I found out I was able to be more creative and more fun with modeling it doesn't matter about the size or shape of a person it matters about the creativity and the Ingenuity of the person. So that was a pick me up right there but I almost forgot my mother was dying. But she was not far from my mind hearing that sorry that one morning was scary enough as it is and I did not enjoy it. When I ended up deciding I was going to use pick me up to help me like modeling and art and other stuff to help me with my with my mother's near passing I decided I was going to try to make the best of my life that's the way he would want it to begin. So I decided to start my name is sufi as you probably know.     It wasn't the only thing that was taking off was the modeling but also my rap career. Was I discovered no not yet but I was being noticed pretty much well pretty much like covid was being noticed right away. I don't usually describe myself after a deadly disease but I was very weirded out that I was allowed to be a rapper not just rapping for fun but I might be doing this for money. Then the next thing you know I end up doing modeling and was accepted on the Model Mayhem what the fuck was going on.
It must have been my lucky mask that I usually wear to keep or ward off covid and bring on good luck I had brought this mask to my talent show that I met the Hall of Famer in the last book and I also mentioned that and I didn't mention that I was in ball games or going to ball games. I ended up going to a ball game I think it was in June and I had a funny feeling and it was the day after I went to the Hall of Fame music talent show and I ended up deciding I was going to find a foul ball. During one of these times when I was going to see the game the team or the Ottawa Titans. Each month we would go during the summer months to go and see the Ottawa Titans and I would get autographs and stuff this time this would be different during July I was deciding to bring my lucky mask to the game and ended up deciding to catch a stray ball. I had a funny feeling this was the day when I was going to catch the foul ball or the Stray ball as it's called sometimes usually it's children who find these things but this time it was different. As I was going to say this is where I think that us Tibetans have the best luck in the world forget the Irish I'm sorry to say that but it's a Tibetans and Asians that have the better luck. Even though my life is starting to turn around and my mother's was going downhill. I want to say that a lot of weird things have been happening after I got rid of Brett and started modeling. One is going to be mentioned pretty soon which would be what I'm telling you pretty soon. The modeling was going well there's one problem with the modeling. Model Mayhem has an obsession with NSFW and they have an obsession with it as in a bad way and they always take my stuff as NSFW even though I wear my clothing and just have a smile on my face it just pisses me off. Why do they do this because they're so annoying. It's not like I do nudes and I will get to you on that one later.