One day, she'll be okay

a not so smart move

hey guys, it has been a while since i have posted an update but i hope you will like this one. Please let me know what you think and where you would like to see this story go. I have a few ideas but i am not so sure yet. Anyways enjoy this chapter and please remember that if you are struggling that you are not alone <3

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I don't want to wake up but I know that I have to. A few days have past since my last relapse but the thoughts are inevitable. The team is on a case and JJ joined them of course and my mom stayed with me, apparently begging for her to go doesn't help and Hotch said something like 'I don't want to see you in the office for at least another week' so that is great.

Without a warning my mom bursts into my room, "Good morning, how'd you sleep?"

"Fantastic." It couldn't be more sarcastic. She just gave me a look and threw a shirt at me, "Breakfast is down stairs."

"Yeah just give me a minute." And with that mom left my room and turned around in my bed. I didn't sleep last night, I woke up in sweat multiple times because of this stupid guy, Wren Dawson. My mind just wouldn't shut off. So instead of trying to sleep again I just stayed awake and read a book until the sun came up. So I pulled the covers over my head and surprisingly I fell asleep.

Didn't last long, within ten minutes my mom pulled my covers of my bed and just said, "You can take a nap later, Breakfast. Downstairs. Now."

I stood up and just followed my mother downstairs but damn who pissed in her coffee this morning?!

In silence we ate our breakfast, I had a nutrition shake because I was losing weight quickly, I also had some eggs with bacon.

I wanted to get out of the house, why is it that I just feel like I am suffocating.

Mom broke the silence, "So do you have any plans today?"

Perfect opportunity, "Yes actually, I made plans with Bella at the bookstore. If that is okay of course."

She looked up at me but this time with a smile instead of a snarky attitude "That's fine hun, just be home before dinner alright?"

"Will do, thanks ma." We ate our breakfast is peace and I ate everything just to not make a scene because I am fully aware that my mom is watching me. She doesn't mean it in a bad way she is just worried. I get it.

We finished our breakfast and we moved over to the couch, I did some reading before I wanted to get ready and my mom was watching some show that I don't know the name of. After a few pages I put my book down and I look at my mom, "can I ask a question?"

She looks at me confused "Yeah of course, what's up?"

"what are you and JJ going to do next? Like what is the next move? Will she be moving in or do you guys stay in separate apartments or are we going to move? Because if so I would be completely fine with that." I say rather quickly.

A small smile is formed on the face of my mother, "Okay first of all miss nosy, we haven't talked about that yet. But if we were planning on moving in together or moving I would discuss it with you first of course." She paused before continuing, "But why all these questions? JJ and I just started dating."

I smile, "noting, just curious." I opened my book on the page where I was left of and started reading again.

The dark haired woman watched her child in awe while she read. She kept thinking about JJ. What would be their next move? She didn't know either.