Purple || MYG

Goodbye Pt. 2

Yoongi POV
    I woke up exhausted from the day before. Remembering last night, I rolled over only to be met with an empty bed. I sat up and looked around my room to see it was clean except for my clothes strewn all over the floor. All of Alex's things were gone and the bed was cold, so she had been gone for a while. I began to panic when my eyes fall on a note sitting next to my phone. The engagement ring I gave her neatly resting on top of the note. No. No. Please no. I shove the ring in my pocket and pick up her note reading over it. No matter how many times I reread it I couldn't make it go away. Alex had left. For good this time. I jumped up out the bed and rushed down the stairs clutching the note in my hand and stopped in front of the guys all sitting in the living room.
    "Have you guys seen Alex?!" They all shook their heads no and the weight of everything came crashing down on me. I dropped to the floor and covered my mouth attempting to stifle my sobs. 
    "Hyung?" Jimin crouched down in front of me and patted my back. I handed him the note as I shifted to sit with my back against the couch and my knees pulled to me chest. The guys all one by one read over the note. One by one their looks all fell and Jungkook actually started crying before running off to his room.
    "You proposed to her?" Namjoon asked and I couldn't speak. I pulled out the ring and held it in my open palm as they all stared at it. Nobody knew what to say or do. No number of words could comfort me and every second my sadness turned into anger. Was I not enough for her?! Am I just too much of a fuck up to deserve to be happy?!

    My thoughts were cut off when a knock on the door echoed through the living room. I jumped up and rushed to the door flinging it open. My head dropped at the sight of Yuri. What did I think? Alex would leave that note and then come back? How stupid was I?
    "Yuri? What are you doing here?" Jimin walked up and hugged her, and I had to look away from the sight. It aggravated me. I just lost the love of my life and here they were acting lovey dovey in front of me.
    "I came to give this to Yoongi. Alex asked me to give it back to him." She walked over to me and only then did I notice the folded hoodie in her hands. She handed it to me with no words and a sympathetic look. I unfolded it and looked at it. It was the hoodie she stole from me when we first started dating. She said it was her favorite and she looked cute in it. It was big in her and almost came down to her knees. I remember staring at her asleep in it on my bed wondering how I got so lucky. The tears started flowing as I hugged it close to me. It smelled like her. Fruity and sweet. I inhaled the scent and broke down in front of everyone not caring how I looked in that moment.

    Yuri crouched down and hugged me catching me off guard. "She told me she loved you more than she loved herself. I'm not supposed to tell you where she is but she's safe. She's moving on and you should too." I directed my sadness into anger towards Yuri. I know I shouldn't, but I was never one to be in control of my emotions. 
    "Move on?! Are you fucking kidding me?! You're probably happy she's gone. Now you can move in with Jimin without having to kick her out of your house. You're part of the reason why she left! You told her you were leaving her just so you can cling to Jimin's side like some lovesick puppy! You were her best friend!" I yelled but all she did was give me a weary smile.
   "I know. But we're all adults and need to go on our destined path. Alex chose to move and continue her destiny and you should too. I'm not happy that she's gone. I can't imagine how you're feeling right now but her wish was for you to succeed. Don't make her regret leaving because you couldn't man up and handle your own." She finished off and stood up and followed Jimin up to his room.

    She was right. Alex left so we could both succeed without holding each other back. I knew this was right in the moment, but it still hurt like hell. I undid the chain around my neck and slipped the ring I bought from her onto it refastening it around my neck. I stood up and wiped my tears breathing deeply.
    "Well, what the hell are we standing around for? We have to pack for BigHit. We leave next week." The guys all nodded and dispersed as I left to my room to pack my things. I pulled out my phone and went over the first time I texted Alex. Delete. I went through my photos and gazed at the pictures she had sent me. Delete. The lock screen on my phone was a picture I took of her while she was asleep in my arms. I lingered over it before taking a deep breath. Delete. All evidence of her was erased, the only things that remained were the ring, her faint smell on my hoodie and bed and the scar she left on my heart. I'll move on. I have to. I'll be cheering you on from afar too Alex. I won't forget you, you're not just some fling from college. You're the first girl I've ever loved, and nothing will ever change that. You'll always have my heart too.