Purple || MYG

Goodbye

    A week passed by since I had last spoken to Yoongi or any of the guys. I checked in with Jay and Yuri all the time and we hung out whenever I had the time. I started my work with JYP early, if I stayed where I was, I would probably change my mind and stay by Yoongis side.

Flashback to last week
    "Alex can I please talk to you?"
    "What is it Yoongi, I'm tired I want to go home." I sighed as gathered my things ready to leave.
    "I'm so sorry. I wanted to tell you, but I didn't know how to say it." Yoongi kept his eyes on the floor and his hands in his pockets, always as cool as ever.
    "It's fine Yoongi. I'm just tired of everything. I can't handle the emotional whiplash that you cause me. You're going off to follow your dream and I'm so happy and proud of you for that, but I need to do the same. I can't be like Yuri and follow you around like she does with Jimin. I'm not that type of person, this was fun while it lasted but I knew from the moment I met you that you were nothing but trouble and that this wouldn't end well for me." I kept my composure and held back my tears. I was about to break up with him and it was eating me alive.
    "You don't have to follow me. I'll follow you. I can sign with another company. I can keep trying with JYP. I can get a real job and we can stay together while you become a model. It doesn't have to end Alex please don't do this." For the first time ever, I saw Yoongi shed a tear. His deep purple eyes stared back at mine as countless tears slid down his cheeks and dripped onto the floor. We were both breaking, and we did it to each other. There's no one else to blame but ourselves.

    Yoongi wiped his tears with his sleeve and grabbed my hand pulling me out the back door and gently pushing me into the passenger seat of his car. I couldn't stop him, too tied up in my own thoughts and the image of the most confident and cocky person I have ever met crying. Yoongi slid in the driver's seat and pulled out of the empty parking lot, his tires screeching as his foot pressed hard on the gas in a hurry to get wherever he was taking me.
    "Yoongi slow down, please." I braced myself as he took a sharp turn into his driveway. He jumped out and slammed his door and rushed to my side and coaxing me to follow him. Once my feet hit the pavement, he grabbed my hand and pulled me inside and up the stairs to his room being sure to do so gently as if I would break if he were too rough. Once inside he slowly sat me down on the edge of his bed and began pacing around the room. His hands tugging at his hair as he internally battled with himself. He sniffled and wiped his tears again before coming over to me and taking my hands in his.

    "Alex, I love you more than anything and I don't care what it takes. You can't leave me. I need you here with me. I'll give up on my dream I don't care, I can get a new career, but I can never replace you." His voice cracked as he took a seat on the floor in front of me holding my hands and staring up at me with glossy eyes.
    "Yoongi no. You can't do that. I'm not going to be the reason you give up on your future."
    "But you are my future." With that he rummaged through his jacket pocket and pulled out a little black velvet box. He placed it in my hand and opened it up revealing a dainty expensive looking ring. The band was silver with a square shaped diamond in the center circled by smaller round diamonds with even smaller ones decorating the band.
    "This was supposed to be your graduation present, but I don't know if I'll get another chance to do this, Alex, will you marry me? Please?" My heart leapt in my throat at the sight in front of me. Yoongi down on his knees, eyes puffy and wet from crying as he slipped a gorgeous ring onto my finger.
   "Yoongi I-" He stood up and kissed me shushing me from saying anything. He kept whispering the words "marry me" as he held my face in his hands and his lips roamed mine. I couldn't help but give in. I know I shouldn't, but my heart wanted this too badly. Tears streamed down my face and mixed with his as the kiss turned more passionate. My brain screaming to stop but my heart not listening and craving Yoongi in this moment. We were both in too deep.

    I woke up the next morning naked next to a sleeping naked Yoongi. Tears welled up in my eyes at the sight of his ring on my finger. He never allowed me to answer him last night. I slowly slipped out of the bed and made my way to the connected bathroom and got dressed. Marks from last night littered my neck and collar bones and I couldn't stop the crushing sadness from what I was about to do. Leaving the bathroom, I found some paper and a pen and scribbled a note for Yoongi.
    Dear Yoongi,
I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I have to do this. I can't marry you. I can't let throw away your life for me. The guys need you more than you need me. I'm just a girl that you'll eventually forget about. You're so talented and confident and good looking, you'll find someone better than me one day. You'll fall in love all over again and have a family. You'll be a famous idol and you'll forget all about the girl you met in college. You don't need me, I'm just dead weight. I will always love you Min Yoongi, you'll always have my heart. I can't wait to see you go on to accomplish great things, I'll always be cheering you and the rest of the guys on from afar. Forget me and show the world who Min Yoongi really is.
    Forever yours, Bora
    Tears hit the paper as I placed it down on his nightstand. I slipped my shoes on and grabbed all of my things and headed for the door. I reached for the handle and caught a glimpse of the ring. Sighing, I took it off and set it on top of the note. With one last glance at the man I love, I left.
Flashback Over

    Yuri had told me that Yoongi had tried finding me. I moved out of her house and had my own apartment on the other side of Seoul not far from the JYP building. They provided me with everything I needed and covered my living expenses. They rented out a penthouse on the top floor of a large building, I would have been fine with a small one bedroom, but I guess they want me to prepare for a glamourous life. Today I had a meeting with the JYP staff and my new manager to discuss my first shoot and project. I pushed Yoongi to the back of mind and headed for the large office building. The front desk lady recognized me and gave me directions to the meeting room. My manager stood outside the room waiting for me to arrive.
    "Ready to meet everyone and get started?" He smiled at me as I nodded and took a deep breathe. He opened the door and ushered me in to the room full of people in suits.
    "Everyone, meet our newest recruit, Bora Moon!"