Twisted

Chapter 36: Fucking finally

Racing heart, anticipation and sweaty palms summed up the situation I was in. I knocked on the door three times and it opened instantly.

I paced back and forth outside the door, rubbing my hands on my jean shorts.

Unruly curls, green eyes and surprise described the person  standing in front of me.

I lunged forward and threw myself onto him. Due to unexpected force, he fell backward and I landed on top of him. I didn't speak but just snuggled into his chest and took a moment to breathe because I was totally hyperventilating inside. 

I can't believe it took me so long to realize it.

He was clearly in shock and confused on what was happening but he still hugged me back with just as much force. 

"Harry" I whispered and he hummed in response.

"I can't wait any longer. And I can't believe it took me so long but I've made my decision." As soon as the words leave my mouth, he stills. I can feel his muscles tensing beneath me. I could hear his heart beating against my chest. 

"Yeah?" He whispered.

"Mhm. I choose you. It was you all along and I was just too scared to admit it. I think deep down I always knew it was you. I'm so sorry for waiting all this time. I'm sorry you had to wait so long" 

He pulled me back and stared at me as if he couldn't believe this was happening. He brought me down and kissed me with so much passion that it was overwhelming and made me kind of dizzy. But I kissed back with just as much passion as if to make up for all the lost time.

He pulled back to take a breath but was back to kissing me in a second. I finally feel free.

Like this is how it ought to be. All this time, I've been delaying this moment. The moment of truth. If I'd have known how amazing it felt to be in Harry's arms again. Kissing him. Being with him in this way.

Maybe I'd have done it sooner.

But I definitely needed time to sort out my priorities and avoid ending up with the wrong person.

Everything in the world felt right this very moment.

Harry comes with a lot of issues and complications but being with him make everything easy. Comfortable. Right.

He's worth the pain and heartache. Evry second of it.

Neither of us are perfect, but together we come close to it.

It will take some time and patience to sort through our issues and make we don't repeat the same mistakes. I believe in him. I believe in us.

He pulled back again but this time his eyes were filled with a different emotion. The one with concern and doubtfullness.

"What's wrong Harry?" I asked,  fearful of his answer.

"I waited so fucking long Clara. It wasn't easy. So I need to know if your full in or still confused. I dog think i can take it if you go back to Zayn
So tell me. Are you sure you want to be with me?" He asked.

I felt guilt seeping through my pores when he said those words. I hurt too many people too many times with my lack of decision making skills.

In order of trying not to hurt anyone, along the way I lost track of things and ended up hurting people. And the realisation hit me too hard.

"Yes Harry. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. But yes, I am full in. No doubts. No confusion. I want to be with you, for good this time." I said, linking our fingers and kissing his hand.

A relieved smile crept up his face which made me want to melt and die. God, his smile is too beautiful.

"I.." he stopped abruptly.

"I don't want to lose you again." He continued.

"You won't. I promise" I said, pushing his hair behind and pecked his forehead.

"I missed you." He said, pulling me to lay me head on his chest.

"Me too" I said, inhaling his intoxicating scent and filling it up in my whole body.

I don't know how long we layed there, wrapped in each other's arms, staying silent in the living room. I don't mind this at all.

After a long time, my heart was at peace and my mind wasn't clogged with confusion.

I didn't want to lose either the and in the end it all worked out. I didn't lose anyone. I had both Zayn and Harry. I loved both of them, just in different ways.

You have to compromise and make some sacrifices in order to get what you truly want. It takes time and patience but you realise that in the end it's all worth it.

At the end day, you follow you heart even though it will break sometimes.

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It's more than one month since I've updated. But I couldn't be more excited to continue writing. I am forever thankful for those who stuck with me and waited patiently.

Thank you for all your sweet
messages.  I love you all so much.

Short chapter, i know but I wanted a chapter devoted only to her choice. Hope you liked this chapter.

But remember, happiness doesn't last too long in books....unless it is the end.

THIS IS NOT THE END.

There is more to come. The updates will be sooner now that my exams are done.

I start my college soon but I'm not giving up now. I'm going to complete this book. And I have another one in works.

Take care luvs,
See you in the next chapter.

XOXO
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