Trollhunters - first meetings - (various x reader)

Chapter 16.1

A damp coldness was the primary thing you took notice of when you began to wake up. The wet feeling was uncomfortably present in your senses, accompanied by a heavy pounding in your head.

At first, your sleep-drunken mind didn't work too well but then you started thinking and -more importantly- remembering.

You had passed out in your backyard after Kanjigar... left.

That's right. He left.

The dew covered grass pressing against your skin appeared to sap all the leftover heat from within you at that thought; the headache spiking.

It was impossible to understand, let alone accept.

Opening your eyes, you saw the end of a sunrise in the sky. But the colors looked grey and dull. There was nothing beautiful about it.

How fitting.

A boring sunrise to welcome back a boring life.

Could you even call it a life now that you know of what it could've been?

A deep sigh left your lungs and you forced your body to sit up. You had to shower and get warmed up again. Make breakfast. Go to school. Live life like a human was supposed to.

...

Your head refused to work so your body switched to autopilot, moving itself inside the house and to the bathroom.

The hot water felt numbing, the steam suffocating.

What was even going on?

It felt surreal. Did last night really happen?

Of course it did. You woke up outside. How could it not have happened?

Leaving the bathroom with new clothes, you walked into the kitchen and grabbed some cereal. Your hand moved to take out a bowl from the cupboard but your fingers slipped on the glass.

Even as the fragile bowl fell past your face in slow motion, you didn't move to catch it. You could only watch until it shattered on the tiles in front of your bare feet.

The sound was strangely soothing. So clear and pure.

Staring down at the shards, you were suddenly hit with a nauseating whirl of emotions.

What were you doing? Pretending it was but another day? Did you hope that would fool you into thinking your heart wasn't splitting apart? That it would make reality more bearable?

Sinking down to hug your knees, you felt tears pricking in your eyes again. A few of the shards on the floor dug into the bottom of your feet.

You were so stupid. So insanely stupid. Why did you say all of those things to him? Why couldn't you have talked to him? Asked him to stay?

Maybe you could've changed his mind.

Salty drops hit the tiles, mixing with the fresh smears of blood.

So stupid. Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, st-

Your pocket vibrated, pulling you just enough out of that mental spiral to reach inside and feel that it was your phone buzzing.