Just a little messed up

Request

A request from Lia.

I smiled and accepted it. Texting her right away would not be good so I should just let it be. I scrolled through Instagram and I stopped at a post. Lia, wearing a white T-shirt which was kind of oversized and it was a freaking mirror pic. And not just that, what made me stare for a little longer was her being a badass and putting her middle finger up and the side of her T-shirt was tugged in her jeans which showed her perfect hips. The pic was black and white. I slide to the next pic and she was fascinating.

It was 10th July and I reminded myself to wish her birthday wishes after 2 days. I stalked her profile and was smiling because she did not change even a bit and also she was still the tiny girl I knew. That was it about Lia. I let that be and stopped myself from commenting something that would make me look like a creep.

To{CJ}

Hey, your birthday is

On 12th or 13th right?

From[CJ]

Hi

No, it was on 10th.

To{CJ}

Damn. Missed it.

From[CJ]

Hahahah yes

To{CJ}

How are you doing by the way. Its been ages we talked

From[CJ]

Im fine not like Im sharing about anything

To{CJ}

Yeah. I dont mind. Its your space

From[CJ]

Thanks. At least there is someone who understand

To{CJ}

You dont have friends. Do you?

From[CJ]

Had.

To{CJ}

Fessa was your friend right?

What about her?

From[CJ]

She was. And also I dont feel like

They are not supposed to be friends with me.

To{CJ}

Come on. Whats wrong in you

From[CJ]

I did not say anythings wrong in me tho hahaha

To{CJ}

And what about Amiga?

From[CJ]

She is a good friend but

Not that of a good friend

To{CJ}

Okkkkkkkk

From[CJ]

Which class are you in?

To{CJ}

I dont know yet

What about you?

From[CJ]

Im in 9th E

To{CJ}

Oh okee.

Happy belated birthday tho

Sorry I thought it was on 12th coz

You always celebrated on 12th

From[CJ]

Because that was the first day

At school 

To{CJ}

Yeah

From[CJ]

Yours is on 16th right?

To{CJ}

Woah you actually remember

Now I feel small

From[CJ]

Hahah thats not the case

I hate my birthday anyways

To{CJ}

I would have asked why but

The feeling is mutual

From[CJ]

Cool, see you then

To{CJ}

K, bye

From[CJ]

Bye

She has changed. I could say that. The way she talk is much dense. Lia is like a great friend of mine. She is someone I always wanted to stay close to. To share all the stuff. More like best friends but I never made a move. We were great as kids but now we are all growing up. I hate to say this but I have put on much weight. I look like a pumpkin. I was rather lazy this year.

Many things have changed and I dont actually regret changing. I and Chaeryeong could talk about our old friends. She used to say how much she hate Olivia and how she does not really trust Nancy. Not like I trust her. I know these kind of people and I believe wont stay any longer in my life.

My cousin came from abroad here because of her dad. He lost his job and she was sponsored on his guarantee of job. Her mom was supporting the family with her job but she had to come back to Korea. I and her shared a really Tom and Jerry bond. We hated each other and the next minute we were under one blanket watching our favorite show and arguing then also because we had different opinions.

Seyoung, My cousin. She was really always following the rules kinda person. But we had fun together. We used to throw stones on the road and hide in the front yard of the house. People used to look around and wonder where it came from. Also once her mom splash water on me because I teased Seyoung that she cant. It was for fun and nobody held grudges. And after a week I suppose me and Seyoung poured water from the rooftop and it showered my aunt. Me and my aunt also were really chill with each other unlike my mom.

My aunt believed in me. In most of the things she motivated me and on the negative side she also filled my moms ear saying her to not allow me for certain things.

My siblings are a curse in my life. My brother, Jiyoung. He is the oldest and he is 19 now. He dropped out his last year of high school and also skipped many exams. And my sister, Jennie. She is the middle and she is 18. She was quite well in school and university. She never had any loyal friends. By seeing her friends I could make out how bitchy they are and how long they could be her friend.

I always had friends who were never so trustworthy but then I started trusting Chaeryeong and I did not make any wrong decisions. This whole year at home was like a long vacation. I did not really attend any oline classes. And later the next academic year started. I was in 9th grade and next would be my last.

I just hope I have a good high school.