Just a little messed up

Performance and kisses

I wasn't ready for the performance but I was getting ready to go on the stage. Anyone would get nervous. This wasn't my first time standing on the stage and delivering a performance. I go to the changing rooms and knock on one and there few girls doing their makeup. I asked which room was vacant and went that way after they directed me. 

I knock on the door and when nobody responded I entered. There was no one inside except Lia she was holding a paper in her hand and looked like she was practicing her speech. She looks up and when she saw me she sighed and folded the paper and slipped it inside her pocket of the skirt. She was wearing her pencil skirt which is so special to a cabinet member. Her capital batch is shining so bright. She deserves this and she earned that position. 

I love this dress on her. Her white silk shirt and her green coat. It makes her look so elegant. Her now is fixed properly and her braids are done perfectly. She walks past me and I am not surprised by her behavior. She has always been like this. 

I change into my hoodie and started doing my hair. I go with a high ponytail which I don't think suits me.  I put my uniform neatly in the cover and go to the other room where the dancers were preparing. Ryujin was amongst them. She's a great dancer, to be honest, and we both are gonna be on the stage, this is a memorable moment. I knock and I hear a low 'come in' and I push the door open. 

"Hey, what's wrong with your hair?" That's the first thing Ryujin asks. "Why? Is it not good?" 

"No. Come here" She asked me to sit on the chair that was there. She combed my hair neatly and attempted a high poly tail. "I guess this doesn't look good" 

She attempts something again and I don't know if I should trust her. But I'm actually satisfied with the outcome. She made my hair into a small half-bun. "Thanks, this looks good" I gave her a thumbs up. "It's almost time. Let's go" a junior cabinet member informed. 

"I'm nervous," I said and Ryujin held my hand. "It's okay, I'm nervous too" 

"Lia is gonna be standing between a crowd right in front of me. She has to maintain discipline" I say as we reach the back stage. We heard a familiar voice and it was Lia who was giving the speech. So she got the welcome. I thought.

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"This is the difference between singing in class and singing on stage" As soon as I went down the stage this is the first thing Miss Veronica said. I was heartbroken. Not because I made mistakes on the stage but because she is the only teacher I ever liked. And she said that to me in front of everyone present on the backstage. "it's okay" Minju said.

"Yeah," I made a fool out of myself. What more can I expect? I wanted to cry but it's not the best idea. I go back to class and take my uniform and head to the changing room. I'm the first one here, everyone down there is clicking pictures as participants and I want to erase this day from my memory. 

When I was almost done, I heard a knock. I groaned because I'm so tired of this shit. I cannot face anyone right now. I saw Taeyeon peeps her head in and I chuckles. "You did great" she tried to encourage me. , "I know it wasn't even close to good."