Just a little messed up

Songs

"In today's class we are going to test your writing skills" Our English teacher announced. "You people are going to write a poem, at least 4 lines" gosh, i love this. I could right pages and pages. From the past few days we are writing stuff like letters, notice and stuff in our English class and today its poem. 

"Well it's poem or songs but i can't expect anything from you. Each person is going to speak in front of the class" I have a song but i dont know if i should or not. But i already see Ryujin raising her hand. Frankly she sucks at writing, what is she doing? 

"Yes Ryujin?" Miss Veronica asked. "She wrote a song" she pointed at me and everyone looked at me with surprise. This bitch, why does she has to be my friend. I regret singing my song to her, she knows too well to whom i wrote it.  

"Oh really?" She was surprised too.  "I would like to here it. And i bet everyone here is curious" yeah everyone is, except Lia. She wasn't looking at me, like I'm a complete stranger to her. It's been like this for months. 

"Are you going to sing?" She asked as i did not answer. Ryujin took her seat and smiled at me. "Yes Miss. Please don't mind my voice" i started taking out the book and literally everyone turned their heads towards me and i started feeling the anxiety and nervousness hit in. 

My hands are cold and Ryujin starts to worry because for a brief second she forgot that the attention gets the job done.  I looked in my book where i wrote it and i look at my teacher asking permission to start and she nods. 

(Idk if i should post the song here or not because i already used it in my other book)

When i started it was okay but at the chorus my voice cracked. The song meant many things to me. When the song came to an end, i was shivering .  Everyone cheered and hooted, i smiled and sit back down. "That was amazing girl. How do you write such a song and kept it hidden in those pages?" She smiles. A genuine smile which warms my heart. 

After everyone indulged in their writing, i looked over at Ryujin and she was having a hard time. She can hardly write her exam and here she is trying to write a poem. "What are you writing about?" I asked and she looks at me, tears almost covering her eyes. "Shush, it's okay" i hugged her side ways. She puts her head down and sobs a little for a while. 

"You don't really have to write about your ex you know" i said and she just sniffs in air. "Help me with it" she says as she tries to calm. I rhymed words for her and few lines she wanted to add about feeling how fake the other is but i don't like the idea of it. 

"I loved her" she is close to breaking down again and i can't help but feel sorry.

A voice in my head says i loved her too. But not the one Ryujin is talking about. "I know you did buddy" i rubbed her back and that's when Miss Veronica sees us. "Okay i guess we'll start from the last bench there. The girl beside Yeji"  she can be a bitch at times but still, I'm starting to like her. 

Ryujin wipe her tears away roughly and stands up with the hard copy of her poem. "I love the people who taught to love myself, in the hard times they never left. Never missed a chance to put a smile on my face, as if they really cared. They gave me hopes that didn't last, it felt so real like a spell they cast. Even with this sad mind, I wish they aren't alone, because I was just the start, not the last "