Just a little messed up

Her✨

YEJI'S POV

"Are you sure about what you are saying right now?" 

"Yes, Yeji I feel like we had the best time together but at the moment, I don't feel the same anymore."

"You don't love me anymore?" 

"No"

That's what I feared, I knew that she'll get tired of me. My self-doubt, my low confidence, and how I can not hide my insecurities. "I told you, I told you that you'll get tired of me," I spoke. 

"Yeji, I cannot force myself to feel things for you, you'll be hurting if I lied to you. I loved you a lot, and when I say a lot, I mean it. Everything I experienced with you was magical, and it felt so unreal. You were the first relationship I ever had, and I'm so grateful that it was with you. You treated me really good but now, I don't have feelings for you. I shared the best moments with you and I'll never forget them. You've been a great companion always."

I gulped, I really like Sam. She brought the better in me and I don't think anyone understood me more than she did, she made me feel heard everytime I had to rant things. I don't know if letter her go that easily will be the right thing to do, but I cannot force her to be with me either. 

"But you fell first, you told me you love me. And-"

"Yeji, I loved you, and these years we spend together were amazing. I love the person you are, but I don't have any romantic feelings left for you. And please, I don't want to lose a friend like you. And specially when you're moving back to korea."

"Is that why you're ending things? I- I can stay here. We can stay here, or you can come with me" 

I don't know what to say. Because if that's the reason she's ending things between us, it will be really stupid. It'll hurt both of our feelings. I'm emotionally attached to her and it's not easy to let people go. I'll go back to where I came from, I don't want to put myself in that dark place again.

"No Yeji, I tried, this whole year loved you. All the time since we started dating. You're everything I thought about, and I know it was the same from your side but-"

"It's someone else?" It's better if it's someone else. Because this whole time I felt like I was imposing things on her and she was nice enough to keep up with it. But when I confronted her, she denied it.

"No it's not. Please, try to understand" she's crying. It hurts to see her cry, I wrap my hands around her and hug her. She rests her face on my shoulder. "It's ok" I don't want her to explain if it's hurting her. 

"You should go, establish your dream"

"Okay?" 

I nod. I'm going back to korea with a reason. And I don't know what it holds for me.

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The flight was so long. And I'm really tired. The jet lag gets the best to me. Atlanta to Korea is a long long flight. My back hurts. I check out and push my suitcases. I'm looking for a pluck card with my name written on it. Well I'm here for a business meeting, I've worked in two IT companies in the US and I have six years experience in that field. And you know, there's loads of money in this.