Just a little messed up

Real, is it?

Author's pov.

How bad is it to be a vice captain? Well, for Lia. She thinks it's a advantage to miss classes. It's a batch she can be proud of. Pride rises in her chest as she needs to leave the class for her duties. 

Right now when she's in her boring physics class, she irritates the girl beside her. But on the other hand Yeji is unbothered. She loves the little stubborn Lia is, the overwhelming feeling she felt when Lia is making herself busy with Yeji. "How would you feel if i staple it?" Lia asks as she place the stapler on the taller one's forearm. 

Yeji smiles knowing that, that part of the skin won't get affected. "It's actually a good timing. Stable and I'll go to the nurse's room and I'm determined to miss this physics class" Yeji knows Lia hates Physics more than anything. "I'm serious, I'm really gonna staple it" Lia warns as she places the object much more close to her hand. Yeji smiles and shrugs it off but then at the back of her head she know that the other one is not less than a psycho. "You staple that and I'll stable your eyebrow like a little piercing." Yeji challenges. 

Lia put the stabler back in its place and huffs that she has to listen to the boring class. "Do you listen to music?" Lia asks. "who doesn't?" The other replies. "Okay dumbbells, what you listen to? Oh wait i guess i know. That k-pop stuff, right" Lia asks. Yeji shook her head and replied. " Not just that but also foreign artists" 

"Like?" Lia questions to keep herself far away from whatever her teacher has to say. "Not like that particular but just songs" she states. "I'll suggest few songs then." Yeji nodded. Lia wrote down on Yeji's book. 

Yeji thanked God that it was just her rough book. Lia wrote 4 songs and Yeji read them loud. "You broke me first, good for you, SAD!, Boyfriend. I'll check them" and when she tried to understand it, they were all sad and heartbroken songs. "You listen to sad songs?" She questioned. "I listen to what I'm in a mood of" the other replied. 

"I'll write few for you. I see you mostly listen sad so this is for you" Yeji stated. "I don't particularly like sad!" Lia said again. Yeji nodded as she wrote few songs in her book. They were 'Gone, On the ground, Solo and epiphany' She wasn't really a great fan of those groups but as per what she thought Lia would like, she suggested that. "I'll see" Lia said and turned her book to the front side, pretending to be listen to the teacher and where as Yeji was staring. Looking carefully at the side profile Lia offered her unintentionally. 

"Ms. Hwang, can you stand up and answer the 2nd law of motion" Yeji looked trembling. Trying to think hard because she know. She knows the answer but at the moment she was blank. "You don't know, do you? And when you don't know something. Your work is to listen and learn and not stare at someone. What is on her face. Why were you looking at her? Do you find her more interesting then what I'm teaching!" The teacher lost her temper. And Yeji said a 'Yes' under her breath that was only heard by her. 

Lia seems really awkward in the moment but didn't care because she knew well that the teachers exaggerate things more that ever needed. "I'm sorry Miss" Yeji said and was allowed to sit back down but the thing was she was sitting erect and did not dare to look anywhere else. 

She hoped Ryujin was here. But then she was happy she wasn't because her friend would only make fun of it. On the other hand Chaeryeong looked over her shoulder like she always do. It made Yeji insecure as per why her friend was acting that way. 

As for lunch, Yeji sat silent and ate. In her bench Kate was seated with Lia. She couldn't look over that side and her face hanged low. "What's wrong Yeji?" Lia asked which made kate look at me. I just shook my head and continued munching my food aggressively. 

YEJI'S POV 

I made a fool out of myself all the time, that's wrong with me. I think the candy thing was too weird and I should have not done that. Kate is so cool and I just look at them and they are all touchy.

They both are friends. I tell myself. 

It's not jealous but it's kind of disappointed that i try too hard and she won't even open up and when she's with Kate, i don't know what they talk but they are mostly laughing.

At the end of the day, we bid goodbyes and i walked my way to my van with chaeryeong. She comes with me these days. It's at least better than going with my juniors where we won't talk. "What's wrong?" Chaeryeong asks as she looks at my not so common quite behaviour. I sighed "nothing" i breathed out again and i know she can tell I'm hiding because she knows me too well, we have been together from 8 years. She's not bothered to ask out more so she just nods and stays quite too. 

I feel like me and Chaeryeong are being different than we used to. We are no more compatible and i feel like I'm the only one holding onto it. 

When i reached home i drag my steps to the flat and as i walked in i saw my mom clenching her teeth and walked away from the scene. The writing table thrown on to the floor which caused a little damage to it. And my dad holding onto his knee and gasping and groaning. I look at my sister for an explanation and she replies "Aunt Ruby was here" 

My dad's sister. She isn't that of a evil but my mom hates her. Also my mom has a little pride over being the wife of the eldest, which is my dad. He has 2 sister and a brother. I don't know why but he pays money to them or more likely fulfill their responsibilities. My mom in angry because he don't take responsibility for his own kids and helps others. 

I put my bag in its place and help my dad sit up. He groans again and curses my mom, nothing i have never known. I could feel the pinch in my chest because how i wished for once I lived a good life. I walks to my shared room and changed. Siding all the thoughts i started writing my school work yet again. It's not much so i take a little break between it. 

I brought my food to bed and played a drama. It's a habit now, watching something while eating. My mom walks in and glares at me, I'm left confused when she said something under her breath. I'm assuming it's her daily thing 'Everything in my life is so unfortunate. This brat is just using the laptop for the sake of writing' i can catch those words even if they are not said. 

She yells at me again and like everytime I try to find out the logic behind cursing your child to death. Like can your mom wish you death? 

I remember when it was my 10 birthday, my mom said 'why don't you just die? It would be much easier without you'  i try so hard to see any possible reason for her to say that. As far as i remember, i just came 5 minutes late from the park because my friends were wishing me. 

Nothing ever made sense to me. 

Not even falling for Lia.....

This thought creeped in my mind and i panicked. What the fuck? Not this again. I like her no double. But loving someone way too out of my league is like trying for the impossible. 

I need time to think. Time to think what, why and how?