Wreaking Havoc

vīgintī sex

My hands were fidgeting as I try to contact Keith and Andrei. I was watching Astrid revive Mary even when I knew there was no point already... even though I know how bad the stab wounds were... how much blood was there the moment I saw them, yet I was still refusing to believe what was going on.

Ano ba'ng nangyayari?

Am I... Am I just dreaming? 

Napasalampak na lang ako sa sahig habang humahagulgol nang marinig ko ang pag-flat ng linya sa monitor na nakakabit kay Mary. Ni hindi ko alam kung ano'ng gagawin... did I just lose my child in a blink of an eye? 

Ha.

Joke time siguro 'to.

Putangina... please, joke time lang 'to. Dapat ba'kong tumawa? Nasa sitcom ba kami? Kahit nakakagago pero kung prank lang 'to makikitawa ako... tangina, 'wag lang si Mary.

'Wag lang 'yung anak ko...

Pakiramdam ko mababaliw na talaga ako.

"Mary Elise Villarama... Time of Death, 11:12 PM."

"N-no..." I whispered to myself, shaking my head as I crawl on the floor, trying to reach for my child. "M-Mary... Mary please, wake up. Wake up na anak, this isn't a good joke..." I uttered as I try to stand and hug my baby even when my legs felt weak. I slowly pulled down the white cloth that covered her entire body and cupped her face... 

"Oh my god... Mary please... Gumising ka na," I whispered in between my sobs. 

She looked so scared...

I wasn't even there...

"Astrid... Astrid, she's... she's so cold." Napatingin ako kay Astrid na napatakip na lamang ng mukha habang umiiyak. Mahigpit kong niyakap si Mary at hindi na inalintana ang dugo sa katawan niya. Bakit... bakit biglaan? "M-may... May iba ka pa bang kumot? Baka nilalamig lang si Mary..."

"Therese..."

"No!" I screamed like my life depended on it and pushed Astrid away. Pakiramdam ko mababaliw na'ko habang pinagmamasdan ang mukha ni Mary... habang tinitignan 'yung mga saksak niya sa katawan... "No... please, not yet..." I uttered even trying to place my hands on her chest and perform CPR pero hinila ni Astrid ang kamay ko kaya napayakap na lang ako kay Mary.

Bakit nagawa ni Isla 'yun?

Bakit kailangan niyang saktan 'yung anak ko?

Astrid sighed and let me hug my daughter for a while... hanggang sa hinila na lang din nila ako papalayo dahil hindi na'ko makahinga. I didn't even care if the ER was already filled with my wailing or if they were watching me cry over my daughter... I just lost a daughter... I just lost my child... Ni hindi ko alam kung ano ba'ng dapat kong maramdaman. 

Why do I always have to deal with such misfortunes in my life?

Una sila daddy... ngayon naman si Mary...

Ga'no ba'ko kamalas sa buhay that I have to witness another death?

Tahimik akong nakatitig sa kisame, hinahayaang tumulo 'yung luha habang nilalagyan nila ako ng oxygen... I didn't even care if I was going to die at this moment... I couldn't process anything... My whole body was covered with Mary's blood but it still feels like I was just in a bad dream and I needed to wake up. I was silently sobbing as I felt Astrid's hand hold mine, looking equally devastated as I was.

"Isla... Isla was held in custody," Astrid trailed dahilan para mapatingin ako sa kaniya. I couldn't even show remorse for my sister... I know she is my sister... I should side with her... but memories of her holding the knife and watching Mary drown in her own blood kept on flashing in my mind like a broken videotape.