Wreaking Havoc

vīgintī septem

Purposely added an x at the end of the case number. :)

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Eli blinked, "W-what?" 

"The paper... The paper I was giving to you... that was Mary's DNA—"

Eli scoffed, brushing his fingers through his hair bago napatingin sa'kin, "Did you really think I won't believe you if you only told me that Mary is my daughter?"

Napapikit ako, "I..."

"Wow... What the fuck, Therese..."

Napailing ako, "I... I tried telling you... You never listened to me, Eli..."

He shook his head, "I hate you..." he trailed, staring at my tear-stained face as tears started to fall down from his eyes. I wanted to hold his hand and kiss his tears away, but I knew I wasn't in the right place.

I made him hate me.

I'm making him hate me even more.

We were broken beyond repair.

"I hate you..." I painstakingly sighed. What can I do? My daughter died—our daughter... died. And it felt like a part of me died, too.

"I'm sorry," I whispered.

"Fuck," he whispered. "Shit, Eleanor... I don't even know if you're telling me the truth, but you're so fucking unfair. This! All of this is so unfair! You did not even give me the chance to be with her and now you're saying sorry? Na anak ko siya?! Putangina... malalaman ko lang patay na 'yung anak ko?!" Tears kept streaming down my face... napatungo na lang ako nang mapansin kong tinitignan kami ng mga tao. I had to endure his words... I knew I was wrong. Nagkamali ako. Sobra. Mary didn't even get the chance to know who her father is...

Na ilang beses na pala silang nagkikita sa hospital...

Tapos ito...

May sasakit pa ba dito?

Bakit napa-unfair sa'kin ng mundo? Deserve ko pa ba 'to?

"You want a fair game, Therese? he said, massaging the bridge of his nose, not even trying to look at me in the eye as if he was disgusted just by seeing my existence. "Then I'll give you one."

"Eli... please..." I whispered, sounding so desperate because I already knew what he was trying to imply.

He shook his head, "You need to wake up, Therese," he uttered. "This world? It doesn't only revolve around your feelings. Don't expect me to smile and thank you for fucking up with my life, again," he added before he left me devastated... as if I didn't lose a child... as if he was the only one who was hurt.

Napaupo na lang ako sa semento, ni hindi na ininda kung may nanonood man sa'kin at napatakip ng mukha. I probably looked pathetic enough to cry even when people were around... I just didn't have enough strength anymore. I wanted to cope, but it has just been hours since Mary died... Hindi ba pwedeng umiyak na lang muna ako? Bakit kailangang dagdagan ni Eli 'yung sakit?

"Therese tumayo ka na, please," Astrid uttered dahilan para mapatingin ako sa kaniya. Pinilit kong ngumiti dahil nagmumukha kaming tanga na nag-iiyakan. "Dadalhin na nila si Mary sa memorial chapel."

Napapikit na lang ako.

"Dapat ba'kong pumunta, Astrid? Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko..." bulong ko at napahawak sa dibdib ko nang magsimula ulit sumikip. Narinig kong napa-buntonghininga si Astrid at niyakap na lang ako hanggang sa mapakalma ako.

"Hindi mo ba kaya?"

Tahimik lang ako bago napatingin sa kaniya, "S-susubukan ko..."

Napatango naman si Astrid at ngumiti nang bahagya, "Kailangan ka ni Mary, Therese... Pero kung hindi mo pa kaya, alam ko namang maiintindihan niya."