I'm Not Who You Think

Chapter 13: changes.

We think we know someone,

Inside and out.

We get used to them being around,

That we sort of expect it.

But what happens when all that changes?

What happens when suddenly everything...

Is different?

They say in life, the only constant is change.

I guess things have changed.

I haven't cut in weeks.

Jake and I have been okay--

He and Sam decided to "take a break."

But really I think it's because,

They realized they were too different.

Jake and I are exactly the same.

And I know deep down,

He has to feel it too.

He has to realize,

That we are perfect for each other.

Or maybe that's me getting too over board.

I mean,

It's hard not falling for the one boy,

Who accepts you for who you are.

Like one night,

We were in his room,

Sitting on his tiny bed and talking about life.

We sang along to sad songs.

But the funny part is,

I didn't feel sad.

"Jake,"

I said softly,

"This scares me. This whole,

Feeling okay thing."

He nodded,

And in an almost whisper said,

"It scares me too."

I closed my eyes for a moment,

And then looked back at him.

His whole expression has softened,

And he moved a little closer.

He slowly drew up the sleeves to my shirt.

He revealed the scars.

Which wasn't out of the norm,

But then he slowly placed his lips on them.

And started to sing a verse from

A Pierce the Veil song,

"I kiss the scars on her skin,

I still think you're beautiful,

And I don't wanna lose my best friend."

I bit down on my lip.

I know we've shared moments like this before.

But it's different now.

It's different when everything seems perfect.

It's different when you think you might be falling for someone.

I'm not the type of girl to let people in.

So all of this has been a big step.

But we can't sit around and wait for life to happen.