My Stolen **first** Kiss

Yes and No

Yes my kiss had been stolen and I freaked out but,at the back of my head ... I liked it ....so I went in and kissed him. I didn't care anymore, I knew it was wrong,very wrong but I went with it anyway.

We switched the TV off and carried on kissing but then I was afraid the others would wake up and come down to switch the lights off so I turned the lights off and the TV on. That way,they wouldn't come down because they wouldn't want their sleep ruined from seeing blood everywhere or come in at a moment where there was a surprise scare.
But I was still scared ... He was my [cousin],It was incest,although we didn't like have sexual intercourse and have a deformed baby ... It was still incest.

His tounge kept brushing on my bottom lip but I didn't know why he kept doing that so I also did the samething and then he sucked my tongue into his mouth and then I got what he meant by brushing his tounge on my bottom lip, he was begging for entrance ...entrance and the ability to put his tounge in my mouth so I stopped kissing him ... A bit disgusted by what he wanted to do.
He looked at me surprised and asked me what was wrong ...not exactly in those words but that was what he meant. Then I told him the tounge thing was a bit weird and he promised to stop but then as we resumed kissing, a few minutes later I put my tounge in his mouth and he returned the gesture.
I was kissed in ways and styles I didn't know existed.

My mind was saying yes and no... Was this what I wanted to do? Yes. Was it right? No.