i get ready i put on a nice red dress redo my makeup and fix my hair. i wait til 7.
i hear my doorbell ring at 7. i open the door and see brandon standing with flowers. "hi kyra you look beautiful" he tells me. "thank you" i smile back.
"are you ready?" he asks. "yes i am" i say. he hands me the flowers and we walk to the elevator. all i want right now is vinnie not him.
shouldn't vinnie be here by now? it's been 6 months, 3 more months til i have my baby, and he still doesn't know.
we get to the parking garage and go to his car. it's very luxurious. he opens the passenger door for me and i get in.
"what do you like to listen to?" he asks. "anything really" i lie. "okay" he says and puts some rap on, what i really don't like.
we get to the restaurant he parks and opens my door for me. we get inside. he tells the host that he has a reservation and she seats us at a table with menu. "enjoy" she says before walking away.
"you've ever ate here before?" he asks. "no i haven't, is it good?" i ask. "yeah it's pretty good you'll love it"
the waitress comes and asks what we'd like to drink, and we order our food.
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after we're done eating he pays for the food and we leave. "so would you want to come back to my house or go back to yours" he asks. i'd like to go with him but i just can't.
"i'd like to go buy yk i need to get some rest and everything" i tell him looking at my baby bump. "yeah of course its fine maybe some other time" he tells me. "yeah sounds great" i tell him.
we get in the car and he drives me home.
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i get home and change. before i lay down i get a call from emily. i answer the call.
"hey" emily says. "hi what's up" i say back. "so at your next appointment you get to know the gender, are we gonna have a gender reveal party, it'll be fun" she asks. i don't really wanna have one without anyone by my side but i know emily would love it so i should do it. "yeah we can i think my appointment is tomorrow actually you can get the reveal" i tell her.
"you want me to have it?" she asks surprised. "yes of course i'd want you to be the one to have it" i tell her. "okay well let me know what time the apportionment is at and i'll go with you" she says. "of course bye" i say. "bye" she says before i hang up the phone.
i lay decide to lay down and go to sleep.
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it's the next day and im getting ready for my apportionment at 10 am. emily is excited, while im not really. im getting closer and closer to my due date and vinnie still isn't here with me, part of me wants to leave everything and go look for him but the other part of me thinks it's too late and i should just wait. i just don't know how im gonna be able to do this without him.
i get in the uber and they take me to the hospital. i see emily there already of course because she works there. we go to the room we're supposed to go in.
the nurse tells me to lay down on the bed and that she's gonna do what she does at every other ultrasound i have but this time i get to know the gender. i told her i want it a secret and only Emily to know for now.
after she was done she gave this envelope to emily. "i can't wait to open this" she says in excitement. "well you can open it once i leave" i tell her. "okay okay we'll i'll see you tmr or later" she gives me a hug. "okay bye" i smile before i get into my uber.
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1 week later (doing a lot of time skipping to get through all this boring stuff)
today is my gender reveal party. i'm nervous to find out. still no vinnie and im at a party full of a bunch of people i do not know.
"hi kyra im so excited to see the reaveal" some random lady tells me. "me too" i smile. i walk around a bit greeting people i don't know.
i then see brandon. i wave to him and he starts walking over to me. "the party's great" he tells me. "thanks" i smile. "are you okay?" he asks me. "yeah why?" i say even tho i'm not okay.
"you just don't seem like yourself, if you need to talk to someone im here" he says. "im fine but thank you" i tell him. i could use someone to talk to but im supposed to be happy right now and that's what im trying to do.
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30 min goes by and it's finally time for the reveal. he just got me a cake reveal nothing too big. everyone's standing around me recording waiting for me to cut the cake counting down.
3.2.1.. i cut the cake and it's pink. everyone starts clapping and everything. i feel happy but sadness just takes over me. i fake a smile and try to get to the bathroom as fast as i can.
when i get into the bathroom i immediately break down. all i want is vinnie, why did this have to happen to me. im about to have a baby girl that me and vinnie talked about, and he's not here, and he still doesn't even know.
i hear a knock on the bathroom. "in here" i say trying to fix and adjust myself quickly. "hey kyra it's brandon" i hear brandon on the otherside of the door. i open the door and he sees me.
"hey are you okay" he instantly asks. "yeah im okay" i say trying to fix up my makeup. "what's wrong you can tell me" he closes the door for privacy.
"it's just im doing this all on my own with no one by my side none of this should've ever happened none of this was supposed to happen" i start crying.
"it's not your fault, life sucks sometimes and does these things to you and no one's ever prepared for it you have to learn to adapt and move on" he tells me.
he just said move on. i haven't even thought about moving on from vinnie, all im thinking is he's still gonna show up. i don't think i even want to move on from him i know he's still gonna show up he has to.
i start crying even more. he wraps his arms around me and comforts me. i cry in his shoulder.
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(a/n) do y'all want more updates today? bc im thinking of finishing all the chapters today i just don't know if y'all want them all today or separate 😭😭
