It's Complicated...

Dreams and Nightmares

CW: sexual assault/rape
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Months passed like hours yet felt like years somehow. If it wasn't for Mina you probably wouldn't know how much time had passed. You'd probably also lose your mind from lack of physical touch and intimacy in general.

As you wake up you feel a warm body next to yours, you smile knowing it's Mina. You turn over and it's not her, and you have no idea where you are. Timothy is laying next to you with his arm over you and you're completely naked.

You quietly slide from under his arm and find your clothes thrown across the room. You grab them and get dressed as quickly as possible, hoping he doesn't wake up in the process. You successfully slide out and run to your room you pass Mead in the hall who's giving you a dirty look but you pay no attention.

You're too busy trying to get to the safety of your room. You lock your door behind you and try to remember what happened last night. You get flashes of you having sex with Timothy but that can't be right.

But I did wake up naked you think to yourself, but you're not attracted to men. Let alone attracted to Timothy, respectfully, ew. Your eyes widen as you come to the only possible realization.

You don't want to think about it so you get in the shower. You let the hot water run over you and the thoughts come flooding back.

*flashback*
"Hey Timothy you ok?" You ask genuinely, everyone knew that he and Emily were having problems. "I'm ok" he says sadly, "you know you can talk to me right?" You say rubbing his back.

He looks up at you and you smile at him politely, you couldn't quite place the look on his face. He asks if you could come to his room after dinner to talk in private. "Of course" you say encouragingly, he wasn't really your friend but you didn't want to see anyone hurting.

You knew what it was like to have relationship problems after all. And if you could help in anyway even if it was just a comforting hug you wanted to. After dinner you told Mina you needed to talk to Timothy and she gave you a questioning look.

You let her know it was about Emily and she nodded saying she'd wait for you. You went to his room and knocked on the door "come in" he said. You came in and sat on the bed next to him, he asked if you wanted something to drink.

Somehow he has gotten liquor in here and since you hadn't had any in a while you shrugged. "Why not?" You chuckled and he handed you a glass and grabbed his. Unbeknownst to you he had slipped something in your drink.

As he talked you tried to listen but started to feel lightheaded. "Are you ok?" He asked 'sincerely', "I'm just tired all of sudden" you say trying to stand. You fall back down onto the bed, "you can just sleep here for the night" he says.

"I don't think that's a good idea I have to g-" you try to say but he cuts you off. "Shhhh it's ok just lay down" you being too tired to even move at this point just agree and get under the covers.

You wake up to him on top of you and you try to push him off but he grabs your wrists and pushes your hands down. You try to move but surprisingly he's actually really strong.
You were frozen, you couldn't even scream.

Once he was done he pulled out of you quickly and flopped onto the bed next to you. You just stared at the ceiling not being able to look at him and at some point you just fell asleep.

Convincing yourself that it was a nightmare and you'd wake up in your bed.
*end of flashback*

You slid down the wall of the shower realizing it wasn't a nightmare...