Dear diary
I was a kid, more than anything, I wanted to grow up. I had these false expectations and ideas about high school and what being a teenager was like. I swore I'd never drink, smoke, do drugs, sneak out, or hook up with guys. Never once had I imagined the things to come in the following years. Sadly I ended up doing all the things I swore never word as a kid. We all lose our innocence and we became aware of the sick reality that is life. I sometimes wish I never lost mine. You grow up and start resenting the parents you once idolized. You realize that they are ordinary people and that they have flaws. You become aware of how fucked up and full of hatred The world is. You start noticing ugly things about your body that you obsess about for years to come. You begin starving yourself to achieve impossible levels of perfection so that the boys in your class will find you pretty. You unscrew the blade from the pencil sharpener and use it to carve the word FAT into your wrist because bleeding the pain is the only way for you to escape the emotional turmoil brewing inside of you. You begin feeling like getting out of bed is harder than moving mountains, and plastering a fake smile on your face is easier than explaining your tears. You let boys play with your emotions and feelings because you feel as though you are not worthy of better. You push away every single person in your life because you have convinced yourself that you are unlovable. You feel so dead inside that the only way out is to actually be dead. I wish I was innocent again.
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Dear Diary
Teen FictionA teenage girl goes through some rough patches in her life and has no one to talk to so instead she writes… in her diary. Her diary is like an escape from the rest of the world. While she writes page after page she figures out that her diary is the...
