April 14 2015 (ill try to post more often now)

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Dear diary
Tonight I went to a friends birthday celebration. It was a great time but at the end the birthday girl disappeared, and a few other small things happen that seem to indicate to me that she is annoyed with me. I have analyzed my conduct and I really haven't done anything wrong. At most, I failed to recognize the moment when she took something personally that was not directed at her and not intended to give offence. but of course this is where my brain won't shut up. I keep thinking over and over again to think of everything I said, every look she had, how she might have taken things I said, and what she might say to other friends. Then I start to worry about how she appears to feel about me. This might impact how other friends might interact with me in the future, and I don't want to lose those good relationships. Then I try to talk myself down by reminding myself that if she is irrationally angry said friends will call her on it and refused to allow her to blame me. But the thoughts of what if? Go on. I foresee manipulation and have to set might convince said Francis spend less time with me. Basically I start to see the demise of relationships, all over and done because of one girls cranky moment.

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