Part 12

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Alvin's Diary
12th January 2022

It has been two years now.. mama. Last year I was a wreck, but I'm doing better now, trying to do things right. I can't always be depressed after all...  Even when the most beloved thing to me in this world was taken away. I have to move on, right? That's what you would've wanted.

I've been focusing on myself, taking care of my health, trying to do everything right. But I wish I could stop feeling this empty. I wish I could ignore how heavy my heart feels. Everything still feels so unreal, as if like I'm in a nightmare...

Be it intentionally or not, if you let a depressed mindset stay that way too long, it eats away at your mind the longer it stays. Eventually turning into a severe debilitating illness. I can't let that happen to myself, I just can't. 

Some days will be shiny and happy, some days won't. But don't let that make you go all negative, that's what I taught myself. 

And I'll continue teaching it to myself every time I forget, because if I don't... I will break to the point of no return. 

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